Feel sad because he’s going to start working soon which is next Monday. I am very sure that I will miss him a lot. Real a lot. Jie said that I’m totally obsessed and I say yea, I am totally obsessed in him. He said he don’t understand why I love him so much. I don’t understand why too. One of my favorite writer wrote about love philosophy. She wrote:
我愛你，根本沒有原因。不是因為你像我或者你剛好與我相反。 不是一種心理補償，不是你擁有甚麼優點，甚麼條件， 也不是因為你怎樣對我。不要問我為甚麼愛你，如果我能夠回答，那些原因也不過是我在事後才想到的。
I totally agree with what she wrote. Cause it’s very true. She also said that it is very suffering to love someone, but the happiness given by him is also the biggest happiness for her. I have always been wondering, who am I to him. Just a normal friend? or a good friend who he cares? I don’t dare to ask him about this, cause I don’t know what will be the answer. He would probably say *we’re friends lor*. To me, he’s my close friend, someone who I share my stories and problems, someone who cares for me, someone who I concerned and cares the most, someone that I can’t afford to lose, someone who I willing to do anything for, someone I miss a lot all the time, someone I love the most. I wonder, am I even attractive? I really don’t know. I guess no one will likes me bah, I’m jealousy, I always think negatively, and I am a thinker. I’m sucks. I have nothing for someone to like me. I think I can’t blame that no one likes me le. Sigh.
I’m challenging myself in doing something cruel to myself. Told jie about it last night and she totally agrees with me. She said “nothing can be help” and yea she’s true. But by being cruel to myself at least he won’t feel fan about that. Don’t want him to headache so much cause he already have so many things to fan about. Hate myself for thinking so much, the phrase below is exactly talking about why we will think so much and worry every single person around the person we love. Insecurity? Lack of confidence? I think its because of this two factors bah.
This phrase was actually saying, if you don’t try to like or love that someone who loves you, how do you know whether you will or not like or love that person very very much?
Anyway, it’s just my point of view of what this writer wrote. No offence. =)
A random photo of me and my bro that I found in my laptop. Taken last year I think. My bro is acting so ke lian as if I bully-ing him.
P/s: I love my bro ^^