Tuesday, December 22, 2009

My Big Day. :)

A week has passed, finally its my big day. Birthday this year seems so peaceful, no big celebration but it’s quite meaningful for me. Thanks to everyone who give me my birthday blessings on my big day in all ways including sms, phone calls or even facebook. I sincerely feel thankful and grateful of having you all as my friends. :)

Last night, my brother took me out and went to fetch Joevy and Ivan to Breeze Cafe to celebrate my birthday eve. Even though just 4 of us, I feel happy enough. Thanks Ivan for the bear, we are best friends forever :) Thanks Joevy for the cup, we are ji muiz forever :)

From Ivan :)


From Joevy


Joevy, Jason n Joey :D


Best Friends Forever :)




Thanks so much for this meaningful day. :)

Thursday, December 17, 2009


It’s been really so long, and finally it has come to an end. A quite good ending I would say actually whereby he is happy with his life now for he has someone he loves to care for him and love him now. Honestly I feel so glad that he has someone for him to be with and also someone able to take care of him and love him for him. I feel released. Thanks for all the memories you’ve given to me, I’ll cherish them in my memory. Thanks for all the happy times you’ve given to me. I will never regret of the days being in love with you. But since you got yourself someone to care for you, perhaps it’s time for me to really get move on. :)

This reminds me of a song call “You’re in love” by Wilson Phillips. It is indeed a classic old song but the lyrics really speaks out my heart.

Open the door and come in
I'm so glad to see you my friend
Don't know how long it has been
Having those feelings again.
And now I see that you're so happy
And ooh, it just sets me free
And I'd like to see
Us as good of friends
As we used to be
Aah, my love, Aah
You're in love
That's the way
It should be
'Cause I want you to be happy
You're in love
And I know
That you're not in love with me
Ooh it's enough
For me to know
That you're in love
Now I'll let you go
'Cause I know
That you're in love
Sometimes it's hard to believe
That you're never coming back to me
I've had this dream that you'd always be by my side
Oh I could have died.
But now I see that you're so happy
And ooh, it just sets me free.
And I'd like to see
Us as good of friends
As we used to be
I tried to find you but you were so far away
I was praying that fate would bring you back to me
Someday, someday, someday... Ooh, you're in love
Ooh it's enough
For me to know
That you're in love
Now I'll let you go
'Cause I know
That you're in love

I really wish to see us as good friends again. :)

I love you very much therefore I got to pull myself out no matter how hard it is and no matter how long it gonna take, so things will be better for all of us. Consider on her position, I think of myself. Therefore I decided to move back to the place of being your good friend. Friends ma, I know and that’s exactly what I wanted to stay as your good friend. I truly hope that you will still treat me as your good friend since I know you quite well already *that’s how I think la :x* :)

Cherish her more and treat her better. I know you will :)

good friends

My most important advice to you, I know all this long in your whole life, everything has been so negative to you, but this thinking is not healthy. What’s the use of keep being negative when things already negative? You’ve got try to think positively because positive is always better than negative. The Law of Attraction taught us that we have to stay positive to attract the positive things to us. So, try to be positive! I’ll still be there to support you because you’re my good friend ma. Remember, you’re not idiot, you’re the best in yourself. There is only one you, no one can replace you. We all are unique because there is no one like us. Stay happy! :)

P/s: We will always be good friends, right? ^^ I will still support you and be there for you because you are my good friend. :)

Sunday, December 13, 2009

Ouch. T.T

It’s aching so badly. I feel so so hurt. T.T

Eyes swelled and pain. T.T

bunny cry

Saturday, December 12, 2009

A Song I dedicate for myself.


我知道我很难过... T.T

Friday, December 11, 2009



I can hear the sound of my heart broken into pieces. It’s irritating and hurting my ears every second every minute. The pieces of my heart is shattered all over. I am stunned sitting on the ground didn’t know what to do. I am collapsing.

It’s bleeding non stop, anyone kind enough to borrow me a plaster?  It’s so painful and I don’t know how to react. My other senses became malfunction for I can only feel pain now especially the pain in my heart. Only him can cure the pain that I’m going through now. But will he cure me once again?

All this while, I’ve been trying my best and very hard to be a good girl to him. Guai guai listen to what he says, he asked me to study harder for my exam, I listened to him and study non stop from day to night. I didn’t even dare to rest even when my brain is overload and cause headaches in me. I’ve been loving him ever since June and it didn’t really stop even after August 17th. Yes August 17th, I will never forget how sad I am that night. Singing falling slowly and crying so badly but I didn’t dare to tell him. I act normal in front of him.

No matter what he told me, I listen and I love it. I don’t even care whether what he told me was lies or not. I love him still. I love his lies and I love him for who he is. No matter how good he say I am, no matter how he know how much I love him and how much I need him, no matter how he say I could be a better gf,  or perhaps like he said I am cute in my own ways, but it all doesn’t matter anymore when he’s chosen her even when I’m better than her like he said. What did I do wrong? If I’m really this good like he said, why am I not chosen? I can give up everything for him, even I am so eager to work in sg is also because of him. What’s the use of me being a good girl anymore when he doesn’t even like me?

I am collapsing, drowning in the sea of love, can anyone kind enough to give me a hand or perhaps a rope? My heart so so pain >< </3 I only hope for him to care for me, he said he will still care for me, I really hope he do, that’s the only thing I ask for. >< Coz I really can’t live without him anymore. ><

I am listening to better in time, it’s gonna hurt when it heals too, I can only pray hard and hope everything will be better in time.


Please continue to care for me, you are keeping me alive. ><

Thursday, December 10, 2009


Finally, exam ended. My last paper was Management accounting which is 3 days ago on 7th of December. God really did bless me for this subject. Thanks God. :) Woke up around 6am just to study and memorize all those accounting formulas. I discovered a way to memorize those accounting formulas.

Gross Profit Margin

GPM = GP / Net Sales

Net Profit Margin

NPM = NP / Net Sales

Current Ratio

CR = CA / CL

Return On Capital Employed

ROCE = NP / (A-CL)

and etc. xD

7 months ago on today, I get to know someone who make me so in love with even until now. Lately a lot of stuffs going on as my 2nd sis is getting married on 3rd Of January 2010. Mama already bought me a RM 210 dinner dress for me for my 2nd sis’s wedding.

At this very moment, I feel my heart is aching and there is nothing I can do about it. Knowing he will be going out with her makes me even more heartache. It’s my fault for not born in sg. I blame myself for everything. I’m really sorry and I just wanted to say you have no idea how much I wanted to be really beside you. Bless you both. Hope you enjoyed your date, as long as you’re happy, I will try so hard to stand the pain I’m having now even though it is very painful for me. Been very sad for the past few days ever since my exam ends. Just came back from outside after going out with Siew Wai. She got herself a Myvi SE White color. She got it since 19th November. It was really so comfy and that is why I love Myvi so much.

I know you think of me as just a friend, and that crossing that line is the furthest thing from an option you’d ever consider. But I have to say it… I can’t talk to you without wanting to express my love for everything you are to me.




12 days to~ 



15 days to


I wonder who will remember my birthday this year. Wonder how would my 22nd’s birthday will be. At this moment, I can only wish and hope for the best. Law of attraction says we must be positive and so we will attract positive things to us. :)