忘了

我心要换你的 真的不行那么 只得放了.. 放了...忘了...

iPhone 4S =p

Finally, on this wonderful day, my long wait shows its worthiness, after suffering from half a month (19 days) of waiting, my precious phone is finally here!

My dearest – iPhone 4S! Hehe =p

 

Got my precious phone for RM1,100 upon sign up contract for 2 years. Got sponsored half by my dad as my 24th birthday present. Hehe Thanks Dad ! Love Ya!

The best birthday present I received on my 24th birthday! Hehehe *grateful*

2 Years and 3 Months

It’s already 2 years and 3 months since I know Ivan and we became best friend, I can still remember the exact date we know each other in Starbucks 2 years ago on 22nd August 2009. 2 years ago we had our dinner at Denis Jazz Bistro, 2 years later which is today we are still dining in Denis Jazz Bistro but the feeling is totally different. We became more matured and I can feel our friendship has grown stronger.

For the past 2 years, we’ve been through a lot together both sad times and happy times. Of course, the happy times are more than sad times =)

I will never forget how we met and became friends, exchange fb and msn on the first day we know each other until you told me on the phone that day that *Joey, you are really my real best friend* I feel so touched when you told me so and at the same time I feel grateful to have known you =)

2 years ago @ 28.10.2009

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

2 years later @ 22.11.2011

I wanted to say, Ivan, you are truly my real best friend too =)

and we will always be best friends, because true best friends are meant for life =)

接受

当事情演变成现在的情况，我想，我该庆幸我们之间已经没什么好说的了

从一开始，所有的都只是一场梦，是你给了我一场梦，但同样也是你让我从梦中醒来

早就该预料到这天会来的，分别只是在于迟或早而已

没错，刚醒来的时候，非常挣扎，拼了命想要睡回去，但是，梦醒了，就是醒了，很多事情，在梦醒的那一刻，都不能重来了

挣扎了一段时间，就算心有不甘，也无可奈何，只好接受

然而，接受梦醒了的这个事实，突然发现，接受比挣扎来的轻松。

有些事情，不能接受，只能选择走开，或许走开一段日子，会对彼此都好过，勉强抓着一段错误的感情，伤到他也伤害到自己，慢慢的明白到，放开他，我也放过我自己。

他不应该，让我感受到我原以为不属于我的喜悦....

我并没有怪他，我反而要谢谢他，因为他，我更加了解我自己，让我可以变成一个更好的人。

Claire 跟我说，放开他，如果他会回来，他是你的，如果他不回来，那有更好的人在你的未来等着你 哈哈

这点，我是很相信的 哈哈哈

我跟他之间也算是告一段落了

我们还会是很好的朋友吧 哈哈

Things will be better in time ^.^

Au Revoir~ Mon Cher Chester Li

安静

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我没有这种天分 包容你也接受她

我会学者放弃你 是因为我太爱你

In the end.

No matter how much I cry, it still doesn’t change the fact of the current situation I’m facing. You said, it’s just a game, and I shouldn’t take it too seriously. Be it just a game like you said, I put in my real feelings, those feelings I have for you were not fake.

That night when you told me why you can’t accept me, you have no idea how pain my heart is at that very moment. Every single word that night stabs my heart like throwing millions  of darts on a dart board. I never knew I was so  difficult for you to handle, and I’m really sorry for sharing our things with 2 of my close friends. I thought to get better advice from them based on our situation, therefore I told them. But  it is because I don’t want to lose you.

I know how mad I made you that night, perhaps it’s good to make things clear for us. I make your life bad, I make you feel tie up and hard to breathe. For that, I’m really deeply sorry. End of that night, you offers me to be your closest mei. I refused to be, I don’t want to be your mei. We choose to be close friends. Very close friends you said.

When I thought everything is going to be alright, until that night, when you came online, I saw your ring is gone. You asked me in pm, will I be very angry if you couple her. I said I might quit. I knew you were pissed when I said that, because it makes you feel like you have no freedom in doing things you wanted. You love your freedoms and space. You came into the game is to relax and play with friends. But every time I online, I will surely go finds you which makes you feel I’m sticky, I thought I was pei-ing you. For that. I’m deeply sorry too.

To be honest, it hurts me badly when you coupled someone who is close to me, someone who I used to tell her about how much I like you and things related to you. I know I have no rights to blame anyone on this issue, but still it hurts badly inside my heart.

Feelings won’t just fade away like nothing, I need time for me to move on. Now that you have her as your couple, I won’t have to worry if you have no one to accompany you anymore.

This is what I keep telling myself. I know it will. :)

Lastly, thanks for all the memories you gave me for the past 3 months. I appreciate it a lot and will keep them with me carefully. Thanks to you, I’ll be a better couple in the future.

My wish.

I wish to cared by you even though I know it’s not right.

I wish you knew how much I wanted you to be happy.

I wish you could see how much you mean to me.

I wish I could make you smile, even just for awhile.

I wish I could be the girl who always listen to you, be there for you, supports you, cheer u up when you’re sad, calm you down when you’re mad, chill you down when you are pekcek or dulan, mostly importantly, someone who can make you happy and forgot all the fan things.

Music Means...

30 Seconds to Mars taught me to speak whats on my mind

Greenday taught me that government's gonna fail someday.

Bruno Mars taught me to do anything for that one person I love

Eminem taught me that life is hard but you can make it through

Travis taught me to be generous

Taylor Swift taught me not every girl is going to treat me right

The script taught me to move on

Michael Jackson taught me to always love the people around me

Music taught me to live

Saw this on youtube and feel so meaningful. :)

Crappy Days.

A good friend of mine asked, “how is your mood today?” normally I won’t be feeling negatively as I have been feeling positively as always. Something bad happened last night, and I began to wonder the value of myself among my friends. Do I mean something to you, my friends?

Along with some other things that happened for the past few days, I feel defeated. However, special thanks to Jocelyn, Angela jie, and my best friend see meng, who was always there when I need someone to talk.

Mindy Gledhill’s California

Have you been to California
Seen the sights and people there
Walked the streets of sleepy sea towns
Tasted salty ocean air

Once I flew to New York City
Took my picture in Time Square
Soho nights and Broadway lights
Such a pity you weren’t there

Pack your bags and lock your door
I’ll take you places you’ve not been before
All I’ve ever wished to do is
Travel through this life with you

Make your way to London, England
Paris, France is also nice
Ooh la la, when people say hello
They kiss your cheeks three times

Chorus

Monte Carlo is awaiting
Bombay intoxicating
The sky in Bora Bora is
The color of your eyes

Chorus