I’m Happy On Phone =p

Totally got no idea why am I so not motivated today. Doesn’t seem to even have the mood to study at all. Don’t ask me why, just not motivated at all. Therefore I called him to talk and we talked for hours. I feel so happy talking to him, enjoy every bits hearing him laughing in the phone. At least I made him laugh. =) I’m happy when he’s happy. ^^

Half way he asked me to sing jap song to him on the phone and I sang. Not so accurate but in my own style of singing jap song. Hope he won’t mind my sucky voice and my lousy pronunciation in japanese :x I sang a few jap songs. The first was the opening song of a cute and lovely anime call “Lovely Complex”. It’s Kimi + Boku = Love? by Tegomass. Quite a nice and cheerful song. The next song is the ending song of “Lovely Complex”. It’s Kiss~Kaerimichi no Love Song~ by Tegomass as well follow by the theme song from an anime call “Suzuka” which introduced by hola few  years back. Its call Start Line by COACH. And just when I finish singing the first jap song, he told me he was actually having bath while listening to me singing. Hope he enjoys my sucky voice :x

Loves to hear him talking in cantonese. He really sounds so cute when he speaks cantonese. Don’t need to speak so accurately de mar, sometimes speak not accurate also sound cute :P

I’m looking forward to our next phone talk :x

Muahs :x

P/s: I miss my Tempura Udon. =(

Marriage.

I believe everyone has their own different view on marriage. I can always see young mommy carrying the baby’s bag and young daddy carrying the baby on his hand happily shopping together in the shopping complex. Younger generation nowadays seems like to marry at a young age. Even my 12 years buddy Machi, her 2nd sis turns to a pretty bride at the age of 19 and became mommy when she’s 20. Still remember Machi even walked to my house and show me her sis’s baby. Okok, her niece to be exact. :x  He is a beautiful baby boy with a very classy name, Wayne. I bet when he grown up, he will be a handsome boy, just like his father. I bet I didn’t mention that I know the baby’s father also. He is the 火星人 in my handphone’s phone book.

Baby Wayne and Machi

*Tong, Don’t angry me for using this photo, because he really look so cute^^*

It was a funny story of why I called him that name. Once when Machi call me on skype, she went to take something from her room, so she told me be right back. Suddenly I heard a guy saying hello to me. So I reply back hello and I ask, “Who are you?” He told me his name is “火星人". I feel funny when he tells me he’s from Mars. So I also follow his joke, I told him, If he’s 火星人, then I am “地球人". Thanks to Stephen Chow’s famous movie, 少林足球, he told me this: “地球是很危險的，你回去火星吧" I laugh so loudly. :x

Ok back to the wedding dinner I went to last night. As usual, we went to Public Seafood Restaurant. Mama, Papa, Bro and 3rd Sis went first. Because me and 2nd sis busy with our make up :x. Er Jie drove her own car and then we went not long after Mama and Papa went out. Wore the baby blue dress which he thinks I look more outstanding with the baby blue dress. Part of the reason also because his favorite color is blue, white, and black.

Me in my baby blue dress together with my blue necklace with a little bit of make up. =p

 

Finally, the bride and the groom.

Happy Wedding My Dear Nephew ^^

25 years old.

In my perspective, it is a little bit too young for a guy to marry at the age of 25. For me, guy’s most suitable age to marry is around 27-30 bah. This range age of guys should have been worked for few years and have already stabled their financial status? They should be able to afford in buying things they like for their own and also for their girlfriend as well.

Back to the point, tonight I will be attending my cousin bro son’s wedding. He’s only 25 years old and getting married tonight. It’s not like I don’t agree guys to get married at such young age, if the guy already have a stable financial, then of course they can get marry any age they want.

However, Happy Wedding My Dear Nephew. LOL, feel so old sia. I only knew I had this cousin bro until I’m 17 years old. And his youngest son happens to be my bro’s school friend? Funny. However, his youngest son looks so much like jay chow. No offence to Jay Chow’s fan, its just my own perspective lar. I bet he will look even more alike when he change to Jay Chow’s current hairstyle =P

P/s: Jay Chou’s Songs are nice :x

Apples are Red! =)

Exam’s date is getting nearer and nearer. Been studying so much on e-commerce. Finished my customer service on Tuesday and started e-commerce on Wednesday. I really feel worry, scared, and stressed.

However, thanks to exam, we seem to talk more. We chat so happily everyday and I really feel so happy everyday now. I am so happy with the way we talk now. Hope it wont change. Please don’t make any changes. T.T

God Bless Me Please. I’m so happy everyday now. =)

I used to hate exams. I mean who loves exam? But now I would say I love exam. Because it was the exam who make us talk so comfortable and happy now. Silly? Yes I am. I have always been a silly girl. I am so happy everyday now talking to him in a comfortable way.

God Please Bless that our current situation will remain unchanged. Cause I enjoy so much chatting with him on msn now. =)

P/s: Special thanks to someone for this lovely picture. =P

Apples Are Red =P!

等待

看了一本张小娴写的书，
书名叫做“贴身感觉”
很喜欢看她写的书，
因为很有意义，而且都是事实
这本书的第一篇是以 “一直都等你”
作为标题，
这篇文章里头，她说了一句话，
让我非常感同身受，她说：
“最痴心的等待是一直等下去，
不知道会不会有结果，
还是一厢情愿等下去，
++ 无可奈何，却心存盼望，一切都身不由己++
第一次看到这句话时，真的让我觉得，
仿佛就是我现在的状况，
真是有够悲哀 lol ><
x 一直都在等你 x

Happy Burfday Jocelyn Ng xD

Got this photo from her blog. =p

Happy Birthday to my dearest mei, Jocelyn Ng Sze Lin! =D

Don’t scold me for stealing your this photo hor. Cause you look so cute in this photo. =p Happy 14th Birthday Mei. =D Although you no longer call me jie, but I still enjoy calling you mei =P Know you for I think 9 months le. Since last year December de :x

Paiseh for the delay of your present. Although I use courier service to send to you, but it got delay. The courier service de people so stupid nia, see the address wrongly, 1C he see as 10 =.=” Stupid nia :p Else you already got it with you and can start to argue with me that the strawberry on the book is actually orange. But it actually is PINK. ><

Except for the book which I courier, I bought her 20k A Cash =) I really love my this mei not less hor :x Even though sometimes she scold me on phone. Mei, sorry for all the thing I do that makes u angry. Stay hyper you this cheerful mei. Love ya <3

Once again, Happy 14th Birthday Mei~ <333 ^^

Happy Birthday Nana~ xD

Happy Birthday to my only guy best friend, Mr. Ng Peng Sang aka Ps aka Nana. xD I purposely put this photo because this is the latest photo we take together so far which is 2 years ago? We were celebrating your 19th Birthday at Bbq Plaza. I miss that dinner. Although I wasn’t there for long lar. I think I bought you a Samuel & Kelvin T-Shirt for your 19th birthday. Can’t remember the brand name :x

This is my 3rd year wishing you happy birthday bah. Last year I bought you a watch. Hope you still wearing it and keeping it nicely lar. =D  Still remember how we know each other? Nana, I bet u don’t remember already lar. xD

Thanks to the boring Genting trip, if not I don’t think we will be friends and even became my only guy best friend. xD I feel so grateful to have know you and we became best friend after my confession towards hola. Remember that time we overnight at your house, saw you play audi only I know that you playing audi as well. xD. You still lansi me say you can 8k and I can’t =.=”. After I back to Ipoh, you trained me 8k so that I can play with you. LOL. The most unforgettable part I think its that time you are going to marry Mindy in audi. Sms me and urge me back just to attend your wedding. Lols. Nana, those are happy times. =)

Ever since you started your uni life, you become so busy with your studies and we chat lesser as time goes by. Sigh. I miss the time when you still studying at Ktar. Cause we can chat everyday. I must thank you for being there for me along that year. Thanks nana. =)

P/s: Nana, your audi skill beh kai ed lar now :x Go download back and audi and challenge me lar xD

Once again, Happy 21st Birthday Nana. Have A great ones =)

Best Friends Forever =)

I wish my eye is camera :x

Saw the standing poster when I went to watch Ice Age 3 with my sis in Parade. Guess I’m attracted by the title and Sandra Bullock most importantly. xD

Gonna watch it next week. Need to study real hard for next week’s exam. After exam my exam ends on 23rd July, I will go watch xD. According to him, romance movie are meant to watch with gf. Since I don’t have any boyfriend, I might as well watch alone le la. =(

Luckily its not a purely romance movie, abo really sad die. Just like when I watch The Holiday. This movie is also not advisable to watch alone. Although I love this movie very much. ><

Been study so hard lately. Been banned to touch audi. Studied quite a lot today. Trying to understand and memorize about B2B and C2C, What is e-commerce and what is e-business, P2P, C2C, M-Commerce. I wish my eye can be like the camera. Blink my eyes once, then screen shot is taken and saved to My Picture de folder in my brain.  xD

Anyways, Gambateh Joey! ^^

Wish me best of luck in exam ba peeps =p

Enjoy the Trailer~~waiting :x

 

Ps: Happy Birthday to Chee Weng, May you have a great ones in Putrajaya =D

我一直都在

This song has been my favorite since last time when I first watch Taiwan Version de Hanazakarino Kimitachihe (花ざかりの君たちへ). My music box suddenly jump to this song, reminds me of my current situation.

Ella was always there to support him and be there for him, just like me where I always there for him and supported him. Silly me. Sigh, it’s not like he will like me anyway. >< At least not now.

Enjoy the mv my dear readers =)

Efforts

Last night, it was a happy night for me. For we are talking like how we used to talk in the past. I really feel so happy. I feel the past days has came back. Telling me about what happen in your life, sharing your stories with me. I hope we can talk every night like this. It makes me feel so relax and happy. NOT THINKING so much when we talk like that. :x

After what you told me last night, I finally feel my effort is not wasted. At least now I know that I’m actually not that bad in your heart. =p

This is the way I want. Listening to your stories. Sharing with me. =)

Care for me more like the usual lar =p

Wahaha Yay we are good friends =)

 

Facebook

A pretty rough Saturday I would say. A quite tiring day for him. I am like that, when I feel something is not right, I will feel nervous and worry and don’t know what to do. I will try my best to find a solution to the something is not right feel else my heart won’t be feeling peace. I don’t know what’s on his mind. I am worried if he angry at me. Cause I’m really a very negative thinking person.

Found this horoscope thingy on Facebook *I know you think fb is gay lols* Although we both believe half in horoscope, but this one really sound accurate to me. At least part of it.

My part – The Capricorns

魔羯座的人天生善良，感情也都很脆弱，也許會因為一些很小的事情難過很長時間。 魔羯的人傻的可以，他們並不瞭解愛情，但是他們只知道愛的感覺，對於他們任何感情的表達都是一種感覺，他們很認真的感受每一個感覺，大部分感覺都可以一個人去感覺，最失敗的愛卻要兩個人，傻傻的魔羯一開始會認為，愛你是我自己的事情和你沒關係，可是到後來越來越感覺不是滋味，於是開始對對方表白，表白成功後卻不知道如何走下一步，也許是太不浪漫在作祟，魔羯的人可能會拿任何事情開玩笑，但是在愛情方面只要他說出"我愛你"或者話題談到將來結婚，那麼他絕對不是在開玩笑，魔羯很物質，但是這點和金牛處女不一樣，他們的物質表現在愛上，他們認為給所愛的人帶來無限的物質的就是最大的幸福，因為他們很自卑，唯一能用自己努力獲得來的就只有物質了。魔羯比任何一個星座對感情都很認真，恢復傷痕的時間也很長。

Your Part - The Gemini

當雙子感到獨孤悲傷時，只會一個人躲在房間裡哭，或者一個人鬱悶著。雙子也很怕被傷害，很多時候寧願自己承受一切，也不願別人抓住自己的把柄。所以久而久之也就養成了習慣。雙子基本上也是個很痛苦的人。表面上總是很有活力，很快樂的樣子，可是沒人的時候他又總是很憂傷。雙子總會被一種莫名的悲傷籠罩。但他不會讓別人發現的，他怕被傷害，也怕被別人拋棄，只能自己硬挺著一切。每個雙子都有一個故事隱藏在心裡，多數是不堪回首的往事，雙子是個念舊或者說是喜歡沉浸在回憶中的星座，他（她）的這個故事通常都是因情所困，動了感情而被傷害了的雙子是脆弱的，也是堅強的，他（她）可以很快的振作起來，可以當什麼事都沒有發生，這些都是雙子演給世人看的罷了，等到夜深人靜的時候，雙子內心的傷痛隨著血液滲透到全身，他（她）可以一整夜的去回憶之前的點點滴滴，可以一整夜的沉浸在痛苦之中，可以一整夜坐在那裡發呆，但是，一旦天亮了，要出去見人了，雙子馬上就從痛苦中抽身而走，你看到的肯定是一個神采奕奕的雙子，這就是雙子，擁有雙重性格的雙子，一個在世人面前樂天，快樂，在孤獨夜晚獨自傷悲的雙子

Simply feel accurate only. Judge it yourself. =p

还是好朋友

还是好朋友，比爱人长久 xD

2 Months

Ok this is another silly post. Happy 2 months =). I know you probably won’t even remember about this date. It might not mean anything to you but it means hell a lot to me.

Along this 2 months, we’ve been through quite a lot of things together be it happy or sad things. I cannot describe how grateful I am to have know you and we became good friends in just one month time. Maybe you don’t know how much you mean to me. But I really appreciate you this good friend so much. =) A lot of things happened in this 2 months and I caused you to feel stress without noticing it. I feel so bad and guilty about it. Dui Bu Qi. I must say that you really know me so well and you know what I’m thinking. Every time when you are pissed or sad and you tell me about it, I feel so damn happy because at least I know what is happening in your life. You have no idea how important you are to me in my heart. How I wished I never tell you that I love you. Cause it seems to bother you a lot ever since you know that I love you. The way we used to talk in the past one month seems to change. I am someone who is very frigid. Every single time when I feel something is not right, I will put the blame on myself and try to find solution about the not feeling right feel. I don’t want to become a problem to you. I want to be someone whom you can share your problems and happiness with. I won’t wanting to be your gf. Be close friend is good enough. I just want us to be like what you said few days ago, continue to see me as good friends and care more about me like usual. You are being protective due to some reasons and I know why. You said you only trust half of what I say to you but I can only say let time be the judge. No one can predict what is going to happened in the future. Although my dad is a fortune teller. Rofl.

Like what I said earlier, let’s just keep track of each other’s life and see how things goes for both of us in the future. If we got fate, we will have the chance to be together. LOL la, things sound so weird all of sudden. It’s not like we are not friends if we don’t couple? We can still be very good friends, agree? You say we can still crap if I still want to. So come on, lets talk crap xD I enjoy and treasure every moment we chat together =)

Suddenly I think of a song lyrics,

你想要的我却不能够给你我全部 我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的
Sad But True..

你要的不是我 心碎的失去轮廓 曾经给你的感动 只是情绪的波动

Suddenly Feel Sad..

But most of all, the song that suits me just now, its…

不远 萧亚轩

突然那几秒
好像天使飞过
看著你微笑
那段时间都禁止
远远的注视
仿佛爱情就该如此
为所爱的人
在我心里留一个位置
虽然那前方模糊
可是想法清清楚楚
比所有人都渴望你能幸福
我站在你不远处
默默地为你祝福
把对你的爱藏起来
放你去寻找追逐
我站在爱的不远处
不在乎守候多辛苦
当你孤单时想起我
那是我最大的幸福 

对你的期待
每段都有记载
每一个眼神
我都想要收藏起来
不害怕寂寞
不止一样没人明白
已经快忘了
当初迁就在这里等待
虽然那前方模糊
可是想法清清楚楚
比所有人都渴望你能幸福
我站在你不远处
默默地为你祝福
把对你的爱藏起来
放你去寻找追逐
我站在爱的不远处
不在乎守候多辛苦
当你孤单时想起我
那是我最大的幸福
我站在你不远处..哦

我站在你不远处
默默地为你祝福
把对你的爱藏起来
放你去寻找追逐
我站在爱的不远处
不在乎守候多辛苦
当你孤单时想起我
那是我最大的幸福

Silly you, appreciate her lar =p Make her feel happy all the time =) I know you will de lar. Sigh. I hope the best for you and her. May you both happily loving together. ^^

P/s: I purposely post it at 7:10pm. So it will be 10/7/09 7:10pm =)

Once again, Happy 2 Months to our friendship, Cheers ^^

Horoscope

Horoscope has been one of my interest since I’m a little girl. I will even buy the horoscope books and read about my own horoscope which is Capricorn. And in such a coincidence, he read horoscopes too. =p

Saw this in Facebook last night. Something about my horoscope lar of coz. I found it quite accurate and true about myself.

如果你讓他覺得「感覺不對」，即使「感覺很好」，他也會渾身不舒服，焦躁、不安，急欲找出不對的原因，看看是否能克服，如果可能克服， 他會試著去克服，如果直覺告訴他不可能克服，他便立刻放棄

Feel worry and scare for no reason. This week is the last week for us to have class. Next week will be study week and then exam week for the following week. Feel so worry and stress. ><

三人游

Liked this song for quite some time. Finally wanted to post it here after I hear it for the don’t know how many times in both radio and my lappie. Some part of the lyrics sounds like me when I sing them.

有些话你选择不对他说

You Xie Hua Ni Xuan Zhe Bu Dui Ta Shuo

你说某种脆弱 我才感同身受

Ni Shuo Mou Zhong Chui Ruo Wo Cai Gan Tong Shen Shou

我永远都愿意当个听众 安慰你的痛

Wo Yong Yuan Dou Yuan Yi Dang Ge Ting Zhong An Wei Ni De Tong

保护着你从始至终

Bao Hu Zhe Ni Chong Chi Zhi Zhong

就算你的爱 属于他了

Jiu Suan Ni De Ai Shu Yu Ta Le

就算你的手 他还牵着

Jiu Suan Ni De Shou Ta Hai Qian Zhe

就算你累了 我会在这

Jiu Suan Ni Lei Le Wo Hui Zai Zhe

一人留 两人疚 三人游

Yi Ren Liu Liang Ren Jiu San Ren You

悄悄的 远远的 或许舍不得

Qiao Qiao De Yuan Yuan De Huo Xu She Bu De

默默地 静静地 或许很值得

Mo Mo De Jing Jing De Huo Xu Hen Zhi De

我还在某处守候着

Wo Hai Zai Mou Chu Shou Hou Zhe

说不定这也是一种幸福的资格

Shuo Bu Ding Zhe Ye Shi Yi Zhong Xing Fu De Zhi Ge

至少我们中还有人能快乐

Zhi Shao Wo Men Zhong You Ren Neng Kuai Le

这样就已足够了

Zhe Yang Jiu Yi Zhu Gou Le

I feel so bad when I know I’m causing him so much stress and I didn’t know about it. I’m really glad he told me the truth behind it. I feel deeply sorry for causing you so much stress. Dui Bu Qi. >< However, we had a good talk last night and I hope we can continue talk like last night. =)

Lost

 

I don’t know what to do.

I feel so lost.

Please don’t say you don’t want to care about me le. T.T

I’m not asking you to care for me like how you care for your gf, just don’t say you don’t care about me anymore. T.T At least care for your good friend? ><

I know you don’t want me to think too much, then I jiu don’t think so much lor. I will think positive like what you ask me to. I always listen and do what you ask me to do de mar. =) What matters the most to me is you to be happy everyday.

I need your care to continue making myself happy everyday. You said before that we are still good friends and you still care about me de. I apologize if I did anything that makes you angry or fan. Just don’t say you don’t care about me anymore. I really need your care. T.T  Dui Bu Qi. ><

What I ever want is just you to care about me and share me your problems and stories. Just that simple. T.T It doesn’t mean I’m stuck.

Once you ask me, “you only want my care?” I said if possible of course not only your care. But I know you can’t give me your love so I can only ask for your care. I really need you to care about me. ><

Sour

When I came home today, I saw your offline message. I think a lot about what you told me. Feel stupid for taking the joke too seriously. Feel happy of the truth behind the joke. Feel superb glad and happy cause seeing you pop me up on msn.

Saw something when I go into audi just now. You got married and you didn’t ask me to attend. Guess that you know I’d be very sad to attend your wedding which that was my dream to be marry to you in audi. Silly me. ><

Although I know its good friend wedding. My heart still feel sour about it. I don’t know how to react at this very moment. But I do believe that you don’t want to see me upset de. Haha. Silly me.

I will never find couple in audition anymore.

I wish I know what to do. T.T

I want to audi with you. =(

One Sided Love

When you tell me you got a new gf, I envied but I’m happy for you. At least someone else can make you feel happier than I could. At least she’s beside you and you can go watch Ice Age 3 with her already. Maybe you can even ask her to learn to make sushi for you since you love to eat Japanese food so much.

All this while, I was one sided loving someone who doesn’t will love me the same way. This thing is uncontrollable. We can’t choose who to fall and who not to fall in love with. Cupid’s arrow sometimes can be *senget* abit. LOLs. And to fall in love alone is what happens when cupid’s arrow *senget*.

I thought I already decide what I want to be. But things you said seems to bring big influence in me. You said people always say its better to find someone who loves you more than you love them. It is so true. Even my mom said the same. Because it is more secure this way? When people ask you, at least you can say, he/she likes me first. So at least when things goes wrong, it wont hurt you this much because they love you more than you love her. This somehow reminds me of an article I read before.

有勇气对自己表白,
先付出心意的人...

无论结局是好是坏.
对自己的伤害都不那么大...

因为,
"是对方追我的"

因为,
"我没有像他喜欢我那么深"

被爱很幸福,
可以接受,
可以拒绝,
可以有面子...

于是我们总是等著人家来爱...

但是...
当我们发现,
没办法爱上对方时呢??

又或是我爱的人,
永远都不说爱我呢 ?

我该接受那段不期盼的感情...

还是勇于追求自己的幸福呢?

不能因为害怕伤害,
就干脆不去爱了...

喜欢一个人,
何必在意先说出口...

尝试过，努力付出过，还是不行，只能放手了。

放手也是另一种爱， 爱一个人，你只想他快乐，因为他快乐，我就快乐。

 

Cameron Highland

Was planning to go together with Er Jie and Er Jie fu but ends up didn’t. Waked by the rain drops when it rains heavily this early morning. Mr. Flu came by after Mr. Cough and Mr. Sorethroat gone home. =(

I know you’ve been fan about some issues. I don’t know what can I do to help. I feel sad. ><

No matter what happens, I will always be your rubbish bin where you can throw anything on me and I will supports you =)

Good night =)

I Wish

I Wish…

I wish I could make you smile even just for a while…

I wish I could be a more interesting person so I won’t bored you so easily…

I wish I could cheer you up with my own way…

I wish I could make you feel happy when you’re sad…

I wish I could chill you down when you get sibei dulan like today even though I fail terribly doing that today…

I wish you could miss me sometimes..even just for 5 minutes..

I wish you could wondering where am I when you don’t see me online…

I wish seeing you pop me up in msn again like what you used to do in the past starting with *Boo!* or *Ding Dong* cause I miss those words so much><

I wish to be called silly girl by you because I feel so happy every time you call me so…

I wish you would understand how I feel…

But most of all,

I wish nothing more but for you to be happy everyday…

I would willing to take away all your sorrows for you to be happy everyday if you let me to…

对不起我爱你

This song someone suits my mood now. =D

My Dog Skip

Accidentally change the tv channel and saw this scene. It made me cry so sadly because it’s about the relationship between dogs and their owner. The father bought his son a dog when he was still a kid. They spend most of the time together since they both were small. Until one day the little boy grown up and got a scholarship to study in other place. The dog won’t leave until he saw the boy on the bus. Even when his parents bring the dog home, the dog keep lying down on the little boy’s bed. He look so sad and I can truly understands the feeling. I have been separated with Bibi for 3 months before.

I hugged Bibi more tightly when I saw this sad scene. I have a dog that passed away before too. His name was Chewie. He is a very smart dog. Sigh. I miss Chewie too. ><

明天的微笑

A song that I accidentally found when I opening my own *Fish Leong* Concert. *Singing now* =p

This song suddenly inspire me when I’m emo-ing, I feel so much motivated now. Thanks Fish Leong ^^

有时候 走过一段路
心才会清澈 也才会看到
关于爱 延伸的滋味
不要去发酵 仔细思考
爱过的他 和流过的泪
都会是珍贵的记号
忘不忘 不重要

只要准备好 明天的微笑
无论在天涯海角
相信爱
总会千方百计把你寻找
可能他 终于明瞭你有多好
想回头 朝你奔跑

只要准备好 明天的微笑
当你想拥抱
爱总会 出其不意静静悄悄来到
也许在 生命里的某个转角
另一个人会给你

默契相同微笑

有时候 走过一段路
心才会清澈 也才会看到
关于爱 延伸的滋味
不要去发酵 仔细思考
爱过的他 和流过的泪
都会是珍贵的记号
忘不忘 不重要

只要准备好 明天的微笑
无论在天涯海角
相信爱
总会千方百计把你寻找
可能他 终于明瞭你有多好
想回头 朝你奔跑

只要准备好 明天的微笑
当你想拥抱
爱总会 出其不意静静悄悄来到
也许在 生命里的某个转角
另一个人会给你

默契相同微笑

Rainy Day

Guess Mr. Cough love me so much, he doesn’t seem wanted to leave me alone even for just a while. Rain falls when around 4pm. I somehow like the feel of raining. It makes me feel so cozy and cold. Took a few books with me and went to sit on the swing. The 2 books are 贴身感觉 by 张小娴 and 爱情合众国1 by 林庆昭.

Thought of a lot of things. Things between us. Things you said about me. We talk through about things between us from Wednesday night until Thursday midnight. I feel so glad after we talk about it. You said our friendship means something to you. You want me to think positively.

But ever since you said you won’t stop me anymore, you are being mean to me again. I know you feel fan at times by many other issues. Then share with me, you used to tell me about what you fan and because we are good friends and you trusted me. What happened that you start to keep it to yourself rather than telling me? I will always be your listener. I am happy to be your listener if you choose to tell me about what you fan about. And I didn’t mean that you owe me something just because I been through some hard times with you. I am happy and glad that you are willing to share your problems with me. Can you just continue telling me your problems? Can you tell me what happened? ><

On Monday night where we talk about transformer and you gave me the transformer’s mtv link. You send me the theme song of Transformers 2 which makes you feel otherwise than just pure rock song from them. We talk about Linkin Park’s song and some funny song like Mambo Number 5 and  It was a very happy and peaceful night for me. You even told me you were on phone with her by that time. I feel happy cause that’s how we used to talk in the past and I’m glad that night we’re back. Silly me? >< You screamed in front of me as usual cause you’re bored. I was so happy that you scream in front of me. Cause the way you scream makes me smile every time. I bet you didn’t know about it. How I hope every night will be the same as Monday night and Wednesday night.

亲爱的丽娟

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Decided to write about this lovely and dearly ex room mate of mine when I go through my industrial training in KL 1 year ago. Her name is 丽娟. My dear li juan came here to study and that’s how I met her in college. I will never forget days we had together during that 3 months. We support each other, share sad and happy stories with each other. When she cry, I will cry together with her, when I cry she will cry together with me. She’s my crying partner and I cry the most whenever I call my mom. Home Sick ma. Remember that time whenever I call my mom, when I hear her voice, my tears fall down immediately. I missed my mom. She will pat pat my back and hug me when I cry. However, she gave me an unforgettable memories which I won’t forget for the rest of my life. That time my mom haven’t got the time to transfer money to my account. I have no money to buy food. That time she was trained in the Mini Bread Shop in Ritz Carlton Hotel. She knows I don’t have money to buy food and she bought bread for me when she’s back from work. Guess that’s the sweetest bread I ever eat in my entire life. It’s not about the bread, but the kind heart of hers to buy me bread. It’s exactly like someone send me charcoal during winter.

Words can’t describe how thankful I feel to have her by my side during the 3 months time. There is a moment where I think I cannot finish my training and wanted to go home cause I’m having home sick seriously that period. She was the one who tells me that she knows I’m tough and I can do this. She encourage me and inspire me in a lot of things. I really miss her so much. She’s back to China le. She’s 福州人. I wanted to earn more money so that I can go find her in China. ^^

I feel thankful to her and to my God. Cause God send her to accompany me during the tough days when in KL. I thank her so much because she gave me supports when I’m having tough time. Still remember I used to wait her to finish work and then we both walk home together. We talk and we laugh together about who who who’s gossip in the hotel.

亲爱的，我真的好想你哦 ><

Warren Buffett

This guy is the 2nd richest guy in the world. Today when having class, Chang Meng suddenly told us about this guy. He spend 2Million USD for a lunch! LOL!

For more information, please refer to think link. =p

http://dealbreaker.com/2008/07/earlier-and-yet-this-is.php

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Mr. Sorethroat together with Mr. Cough pay me a visit yesterday and since then I cough non stop and having sorethroat. x.x

My dear friends, please take good care of yourself because the weather is not stable nowadays. Drink more water, eat less fried food and drink He Ren Ke. ^^

I saw this while surfing around.

生病的人任性
生病的人要人疼
生病的人不想让它好 xD

It is so true =p

Good Friends

Finally I had came to a conclusion after talking to jie. Can’t believe that they both actually thinks alike. Hahahahahahaha. It’s weird to say it this way but they do think alike. I know what I should do and I will do it according to what jie says. =)

I don’t know about the future. But I know it’s impossible for you to like me now. Well let’s just keep track on each other’s life and see what happens. Silly you, please remember we are good friends no matter what.

Lovers may come and go, but friends are forever. Maybe being just good friends is better for both of us now. Just like what you used to say, “wait till the day you fall for me then we think ba” but this time its referring to u rofl xD

You said this 2 weeks ago: “u re still my good friend mah, i still care abt u mah”

Hope you are still doing so. =)

So we are good friends jiu shi le. =D

还是好朋友，比爱人长久 xD

你并没有对不起我，感情的世界里，没有对错，我只是在错的时间爱上了你，你以为对我冷冷的我就不会继续喜欢你，你那招没用啦，哈哈，我必须用自己的方式去不要继续喜欢你

Proud :x

Last night went out with See Meng and Siew Wai. She came back from Singapore for some time already but we never go yum cha with her. She say wants to show us her bf mar. So her bf fetch us out. We went to have our dinner at Filling Station. And I have no idea why her bf keep saying wants to eat in places with aircond. Seriously it is weird for a guy who insist to eat in a place with aircon lor. It shocks me and See Meng.

We finish our dinner quite early. Its only 9pm. I ordered Chicken Ham Carbonara. We were talking about days during our secondary time. It was so stupid and funny. Gossips about people. Omg we are so bad :x However, when me and See Meng wants to pay back her bf, he said he treat us eat. Yay, Thanks to him ^^

Since our dinner ends so early, they ask if there is any other place we wants to go. And so I brought them to the hotel I worked before, Tower Regency Hotel. xD

Went there then saw Lela and talked to her for a while. For our first batch of the front office staffs, only left Kak Faez, Ya A, Lela, Ema, and Sharin. I was quite shock when I heard Ema is still in front office. But it was a good thing though, at least next time if I go back to work, I still have friends there. xD

When they show me the price list, that was a big shock and feel of super proud and happy. xD

THEY ARE STILL USING THE PRICE BROCHURE THAT I DESIGNED EARLIER. XD

When I hold this brochure, I feel superb proud. Because they are still using the brochure that I design. =)

I asked to see the empty room. When I was still working in that hotel, I never been to the hotel rooms before. And I recorded videos. xD

I Went to see a few types of room. Firstly was Deluxe Room. Follow by Junior Suite, Ambassador Suite, and Pent House Suite. Pent House Suite is the most expensive type of room in this hotel. The price is RM5k PER NIGHT. Siao right? Lols, I wont so siao to choose to live in a room which cost RM5K per night to stay lor. 5K I can go travel in my favorite country liao. xD But still its worth it because I get to take a look at such expensive room. xD

And of all the rooms, I still prefer Junior Suite. Because it is more spacious and looks nicer. =)

Junior Suite

Pent House Suite

That’s all for now. Bye =D

Thanks

Complicated feelings are buried inside me now. I just came back from my brunch and feel so weird. Why makes me feel weird? I don’t know.

I wonder, to whoever reads my blog, am I a good listener to you all? I’ll be so happy when you all tell your stories to me and I feel so happy because you share it with me and I’m glad at least I could help you all by simply listening to whatever you all want to say. I never ask for any credits because it’s not needed. 

You all choose to tell me because you all trusted me so much. I never let down any of my friends before and I’ve always been thank for listening to them when they need someone to talk to. Hereby, I thanks you all for trusted me so much and I will continue supports you all while I’m still alive in this world. I also want to thanks a few person who supports me during my hard times. Firstly, my mei, Jocelyn. She has been listening to my grandmother stories for months and I know I bored her at times when listening to my stories, but I’m really thankful to have her by my side.

Secondly, I would like to thanks Wen Jie. Every time when I’m sad because of things happened in my life, he will cheer me up, he turns my sadness into happiness by simply *hush hush* me to slow down my tears. It helps a lot. He always cheer me up and an wei me when he knows I cry. Still remember the period where me and my kor had some arguments, he was there all the time to pei me chat and cry.  If I don’t have him beside me during that tough period, I really don’t know how to go through that period myself. Wen Jie, Xie Xie Ni. =) Please continue to support me, because your support means a lot to me. =)

Thirdly, I want to thank Momo aka Vicky. She’s been listening to me and supports me when I am so sad and down. She gave me a lot of ideas and cheer me up by her own unique way. She tells me the truth although the truth hurts. She will apologize first before she tell me the truth. Thank you so much Vicky. ^^

I would like to thanks Judee also. She’s been hearing my stories and send me home and comfort me a lot during tough times. Remembering that day I cried in class and she send me home. I really feel so thankful to have her by my side. Thanks Judee ^^ Love Ya ^^

Forth person to thank, my jie aka Angela. Every time when I have problems, she will give me advice and makes me laugh. Feel so comfort every time I tell her my stories. Thanks a lot jie. =)

Fifth person to thank, Mindy Mei. She purposely call me up that day because she knows I’m sad. I feel so thankful when I talk to her on the phone and she comforts me and give me advice.

Lastly, special thanks to my brother and his gf. On Tuesday night, it was a tough night for me and I went to knock his room and cry on his bed. His gf were there to listen to my problems. He gave me a big hug which makes me feel so warm. I love you, Shu Wei =)

I feel so thankful to have you all besides me. I love you all and I will not go through all those tough time without the supports from every each of you. I love you all and thanks for supporting me. Please continue to support me. ><

Amendments

Some amendments for the Sorry post.

I remember every single thing you told me. Things you like and don’t like to eat, things you interested, your past working place, what you like and what you don’t and a lot more. I’m gonna miss you very much le. ><

I will always be by your side when you need me. I will try to not to message you as often as before. Although not talking to you is gonna be very hard for me. I rather suffer myself but I don’t want to become a problem to you and makes you feel irritated more. >< You can don’t talk to me but just don’t delete me or block me from your msn.

I’ve change the top pictures which I’ve been displayed for months. And every single word from that picture is what I wish for you. Truly from my heart. =)

Sorry

Sometimes, saying too much sorry will irritates people without notice. And for that, I am an expert. There are 4 kinds of emotion mixing in myself now. Sadness, disappointment, lost and bitter. I can hardly breathe now . Breathing is so painful. I really don’t know what to do now. I’m stuck here and I don’t know what to write. I can’t seems to find the right words to replace my emotions. I suddenly feel so helpless.  I tried so hard to makes us talk like last time. But no matter how hard I try, it only last for some time. I didn’t know that things I said actually irritated you. For this, I apologize deeply.

I’m doing this is because I wish there was a way that I could go back in time to chat with you like as though we were best of the best friends. Maybe not best friend, we are good friends according to what you said. A friend who understands you more than others do. Maybe you don’t know the feeling of my heart break into a million pieces when you are being cold to me. I feel uneasy. I don’t feel right. The feeling is horrible. I know you feel guilty and don’t know what to do with me. But it’s alright,it’s ok. Because I’m still living in the memory where you and I had great time together. You know, every moment I spend with you is a moment I treasure. I hope you will be back someday. Someday where I can chat with you like how we used to chat which you say you feel relax and nice talking to me because you can say what you want to say without thinking anything. I will always be by your side when you need me. I will try to not to message you as often as before. Although not talking to you is gonna be hard for me. I rather suffer myself but I don’t want to become a problem to you and makes you feel irritated more. >< You can don’t talk to me but just don’t delete me or block me from your msn.

You always said, *Don’t love me best*. You’ve also said that love can’t be force. And I want to say the same theory that you can’t force someone to stop loving you also. It takes time I guess.

Once I said I hope we are still good friends and you said we are. I truly hope we are still good friends. You know I have always wanted you to be happy everyday and now she is back with you and I feel you will be happy everyday now. I’ve did what I promised earlier and please take good care of yourself. Your back has been pain for some time but I know you don’t like people telling you to do this and that. I just think you should go see doctor about it because you feel painful of it.

I hope the best for you and her. May you both happily loving together. Silly you. ^^ I do hope we can still audi together. =) As good friends of course. =)

Bleh

Yesterday was Kah Men’s birthday. But I only blog about it now its because I only get the photos we took from Miss Nurainie. We even went out to buy cakes for her during lunch time. Judee fetched me, Chee Leong, Fiona and Patricia along to Deli Garden to buy Chocolate Moist Cake for Kah Men’s birthday.

Once again, Happy 20th Birthday Again Kah Men ^^

Today Mama took me and Ah Jie to Kintoki to eat Jap food. She order a set of fried tempura and sushi. While I was glancing around the menu, I saw something that shocks me. *Tamago Maki*  O_O

I immediately sms him about it and he is coincidence having his favorite Japanese food – Sashimi. I remember he said he will eat sashimi with wasabi. xD Looks like someone having happy time and I’m really happy for him ^^ Yay we are good friends =)

The Girls With Burfday Girl ^^

Group Photo With Miss Nurainie

Lovely and Funny Classmates ^^

Clearing Glasses And Napkins =P

Jie

Jie is back from her Europe Trip. Talked with her until 4am last night. Feel so glad after talking to her. Thanks Jie ^^

I somehow can feel that something is bothering him. No matter how I ask him he doesn’t seem wants to tell me about it. He keep on say nothing. He promised me that he will share his problems with me. I hope he really do so because we are good friends and that is what good friends do. I am worrying. ><

I Want You To Be Happy

Finally, I feel so relieved after what he told me last night. Something happy has happened. I must say that I feel so happy for him because I know there is only one person who can really make him truly happy and now they are happy together^^

However, I will still do the promise I said earlier.  I’m referring to my promise towards someone whom I care a lot. Although the process is not easy but I know I will able to go through it. I wonder did I said something wrong which irritated him >< I talk to him and he doesn’t seem to reply me. I’m worrying >< I think it must be my fault which makes him don’t want to reply me. Dui Bu Qi T.T

There is a song I used to ease my pain. Which the song is very helping. =)

Its *You’re In Love* by Wilson Phillips

And now i see that you're so happy
And ooh, it just sets me free
And I'd like to see
Us as good of friends
As we used to be
Aah, my love, aah
You're in love
That's the way
It should be
'cause i want you to be happy
You're in love
And i know
That you're not in love with me
Ooh it's enough
For me to know
That you're in love
Sometimes it's hard to believe
That you're never coming back to me
I've had this dream that you'd always be by my side

This part of the lyrics somehow sings out what is in my heart.

I Want You To Be Happy. =)

To You.

To You.

Last night was a disaster for me. I just want to say that I will not blame you for anything because it’s not your fault. You always tend to blame yourself for everything no matter its right or wrong. I know you would surely think it is your fault. Blame you? Scold you? Hate you? Everything on you? It’s not even your fault. It’s my own problem. Just don’t feel so guilty already you silly =P

From we firstly know each other, until we became good friends, I feel happy about what happened between us. Remember the *dit dit dit* sound you heard while we were on phone that night? Well, it’s not *dit dit dit dit and then diiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii*, its *dit~dit~dit~dit~* continuing. I wouldn’t say I know you very well. But you must admit that I somehow knows what you think at times? xD We think alike de lor, please remember that!

I’m feeling so thankful for God to bring you into my life. I am so happy to have a good friend like you. And I’m sure we will always be good friends. =) So don’t be silly and we can just rewind back to the day where we still laughing happily on the phone. Remember your rewind theory? How good if everything can be rewind and according to you, it can be be rewind.

I have this silly thinking before. That you might have like me a little but you didn’t notice it. I still remember there is this period where we both are confusing what kind of relationship we are in by that time. Missed the time you call me *dear* because of the silly and stupid dream I had about my mei, my kor and you.

Ok, I’m over bubbly again. The main point I’m trying to say its we are good friends and we will always be, ok? ^^  Thanks for giving me good memories. I will cherished the memories you’ve gave to me. You’ve been giving a good memories for me and the memories will continue building. Cheer up ^^

The time we coupled has been a very happy day for me. You always pei me play. But you can’t pei me much now already. =(

You know what I need than anybody else. Just continue giving it and I’ll be satisfied. Love can’t be force. I’m glad that you found someone you like. It’s good for you. Lucky her, she will get every care from you.

Most important thing, DON’T FEEL GUILTY YOU SILLY!! ^^ And do the promises you promised me. =)

GOOD FRIENDS FOREVER =)

Heartbroken

My heart is very pain. But I was told that I cannot say my heart is pain. Cause according to scientific knowledge *special thanks to Jocelyn*, heart pain or heartache only happens when we are having heart attack.

Everything was normal until this afternoon when I was back from my class. I went to audition to play with Wen Jie and Fel. And in the room, I realize something. I know he doesn’t like me to jealous so much but what I saw is just beyond my limit. My tears straight falls down when I saw him saying *I love you sorpor* to her.

No matter how I message him in audition or sms, he didn’t reply me much. I cried non stop. Cause I really don’t know what to do. I thought last night we both still happily talking on phone. And suddenly, everything just changed. I asked him in msn later on and he doesn’t seem to know what to reply me. It all began ever since he knows the girl when she ask him to send her *haxx*. He likes her. Even though she likes to bully him by talking to him in Cantonese. At this very moment, I blame myself for not able to make him to like me. I’m such a failure. I can’t even make someone I love to love me the same way. Or perhaps no one would ever love me the same way as me towards them. I don’t know. ><

I hate her. But I have no rights to even hate her. Hate her for snatching him from me? He’s not even my audition couple anymore. I can only blame myself because I can’t make him to EVEN like me like how I love him. How pathetic. I called him up to talk to him. He doesn’t know what to reply me in the phone. 

But however, I remember what he promised me. He said he will never pangseh me. I truly hope that we are still good friends. Because I have nothing much left with me T.T. He said I will never feel alone because I have him.

I don’t know how to smile anymore. Wen Jie, we will just remain the same like before ok? Don’t bu li wo cause you already coupled with her and if you don care about me I really will collapse de. ><

I feel so sad. I can’t go through this alone. T.T  Pls, someone cheer me up? ><

At the very end, I can only say I tried my best.

I Love You.

We on phone for 1 hour last night and we didn’t notice it. I guess its because we are having happy time talking together. I can’t really describe how happy I am when I’m on phone with him and I enjoy it so much. He sounds so cute and I love listening to his voice. We hang up because he needs to reply messages. Else I really hope we could talk more longer. =(

I really love him so much le. I am happy to be loving him. =)

I told my mei about what I wish for from Wen  Jie. She say my wish so simple. I only wish to stay by him and share his problems when he sad or share his happiness with him when he’s happy. I just need him to chat with me and care for me and I care for him. I said I will wait for him for 1 year. And I will do so.

Wen Jie, I really love you so much. Just don’t push me away and thinking I’m wasting my time. Because I don’t think its wasting at all.

陪着你的光阴 怎样都不算蹉跎

陪着你的光阴 永远都觉得不够

 

Happy Papa Day ^^

Happy Papa Day to all the Papa in the world =) May You all have a great one with your sons and daughters ^^

This morning I woke up at 1030 by mama. She say today is Papa day and Papa wants to go eat breakfast together. We didn’t tell Papa tat we are going to celebrate for him. *But I think he knows =p*

So we took him to the Old Town Kopitiam at the Ipoh Field. The streets are quiet because its a Sunday mar. However, it is quite crowded inside the kopitiam. I’ve order the Gai Si Hor Fun as usual together with a bowl of half boiled egg plus with one cup of enrich chocolate. As usual papa didn’t order anything lor. He *income tax* of our food as usual xD. He has been doing that since we small and so we already used to it  :x

After brunch, We went to shop a little. I bought a shoe from Coey’s Shop. I saw one shoe but 2 different color. One is the white ones and the one was the black one. I love both of them very much. x.x but wasn’t allow to buy them together. Mama say buy one try and see if its comfortable to wear then only decide whether to buy the black ones as well. I choose the white ones than the black color because its more easier when I need to match my clothes and bottom.

I bought the shoe with RM35 after 20% discount by Coey. ^^    

Then I went to walk around and saw the ground floor got this KBOX Singing Competition. I walk by the stage and went to Starbucks. Thought of having one cup of my favorite chocolate cream chip but then again it’s expensive. x.x However, I accidentally bumped into Calvin. He was with his 2 girlfriends. *Pure girl friend only he say* We talk for some time then he went off with the 2 girl friend of him.

My New White Shoe. =D

Invisible

Taylor Swift : “This is a song about a girl who loves a boy who loves somebody else”

She can't see the way your eyes will light up when you smile
She never noticed how you stop and stare whenever she walks by
And you can't see me wanting you the way you want her
But you are everything to me

And I just want to show you, she don't even know you
She's never gonna love you like I want to
And you just see right through me but if you only knew me
We could be a beautiful miracle, unbelievable
Instead of just invisible, yeah

There's a fire inside of you that can't help but shine through
But she's never gonna see the light, no matter what you do
And all I think about is how to make you think of me
And everything that we could be

And I just want show you, she don't even know you
She's never gonna love you like I want to
And you just see right through me but if you only knew me
We could be a beautiful miracle, unbelievable
Instead of just invisible

Like shadows in the faded light, oh, we're invisible
I just wanna open your eyes and make you realize

And I just want to show you, she don't even know you
Baby, let me love you, let me want you
You just see right through me but if you only knew me
We could be a beautiful, miracle, unbelievable
Instead of just invisible, oh, yeah

She can't see the way your eyes will light up when you smile

I like this song, whenever I listen to it, its as if singing what is in my heart. T.T

=(

YAY! Finally. After so many nights of not enough sleep, I finally hands in my assignment. Never really audi much due to the assignment and I feel so bad about it. Although I did audi a few rounds to distress myself in between. But really only a few games nia. :x

I want to thanks him for keep urging me about my assignment. He wasn’t really happy lately. I guess I know why bah. Tomorrow then is Saturday le. I feel so scared of tomorrow due to what he had told me earlier. I can’t even be happy when I think of what he said earlier about tomorrow even now I’m free of assignment already.   

Today is my 3rd sis’s birthday. We will have dinner with her as the past years. I really hope him to be happy. He always say “don worry about me”. I would do anything to make him happy lor

I miss the emoticon he use. Especially the xD word. ><

L o s t

Lately bad things keep on happening on me. My 2nd sis is angry at me and we have not been talking for the past one week. She’s angry at me because she seeing me emotional not stable but still cares about my friends. At this very moment, I just hope someone would talk to me and comfort me. I need supports and unfortunately there is no one here to support. He is now having a bad mood and I really hope he can cheer up later on.

Will someone just pop up my msn and cheer me up? I really need supports…><

I can’t go through this alone.

God please I beg you to bless me with the good blessings. ><

Ice Cream

Guess what is inside? Its cute right? Dog head as the cover. It’s Japanese product and it is ICE CREAM inside. One small small container with ice cream separately. Cute right? :x

S m i l e =)

人生有多少个十年？ Enjoy the life while you all can peeps. Happy or not happy also have to pass the day, so why not choose the happy? And yes it is always easy to say, not easy to do. >.>.

So, GAMBATEH LOR!

P/s: Feel happy for Ken, May you enjoy your Paris and Italy trip with your gf lar :x

Blur Queen

I totally cannot believe that I actually left my hp in my room.>.> I only realize that when I was in the car where my bro is rushing to drop me off and go for class as well. Things doesn't seem to end this way. I forgot to bring my comb with me and now my hair is so messy and I wish so much to go home and take my hp now. T.T

6 more mins till my class start. Please call me blur queen. >.>

*Not ~BlurQueen~ * but really a blur queen.  .____.

How I wish he could *poke* me when he sees this, but I don think he has the mood to do so anymore. I missed talking to him. =(

Woke up quite early by mama this morning at 615am. They came back from JB le. We went to 富山eat 点心. Stupid msn is driving me crazy again. Been wanting to leave offline message for someone but doesn't seem able to deliver. >.> Fine I'll just send it later on when I'm back at home. I feel like skipping customer service classes later. Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa I really wants my hp back so much =(

1 Month

Happy 1 month! It is very silly , cause we are not like together for 1 month or something like that. However, this day means a lot to me. The fastest friend-become-good friend in my history. Even my best friend, It took us half a year to become best friend. I really appreciate this good friend of mine and I just want to say I’ll always be your listener and supporter no matter you’re sad or happy.

However, I’m really a boring and not interesting person. I often bored people easily. But that is something I couldn’t change. How I wish I can be a joker. At least I can cheer people up. There are also people cheered by me in their own way. For example, 2 of my brother-in law. They can be very happy by simply *suan* me cause they know I won’t mad at them and they find it quite fun to *suan* me. I don’t mind to be *suan*, at least I made them happy.

Sorry for being a boring person. T.T

Happy 1 month. =)

Past Tense

I tend to be someone who loves to reviews back all the histories I had back then with some of my friends. Some of them, we just don’t keep in contact, but some of them we still keep in contact, updates each other’s life in msn sometimes. It doesn’t matter its one month once or one week once, as long as we keep track of each other’s life.

I love to wander so much on the msn history I have with everyone in my msn list. Of course, there are a few histories on my favorite list. Like Luna, Jack, Marc, Seal, and Ps. This few person I mention has been my favorite person to talk, especially Luna and Ps. Luna is my god sis, I love her to bits but she’s busy with her life and so we haven’t been talk for months. Ps is my best friend and he’s been supporting me a lot in the past few years and he is still supporting me now but only when he is FREE. I purposely highlighted the FREE word cause he has been super duper busy since he started his uni life. His birthday is soon coming which next month 15th of July. It is also my mei ’s birthday. Gonna find one day go post office and post the present to mei. I bought Ps a watch last year for his birthday. I would really feel so happy if he is wearing it on his birthday. And possible, I might be able to celebrate his birthday together with the Nana gang this year. Maybe together with Ken as well. However it is yet to be confirm.

However, histories can break our heart at times.

别再为她流泪

For someone who doesn’t wants to read this. =)

I modified it and here it is =)

你走了太久一定很累
她错了不该你来面对
离开她就好 就算了 心情很干脆

她其实没有那么绝对
远一点你就看出真伪
离开她不等于你的世界会崩溃
转个弯你还能飞

就别再为她流泪
别再让她操控你的伤悲
就算有一点愚昧一点点后悔
也不要太狼狈

她不值得你的泪
把那遗憾留在大雨的街
她曾在迷失的旅途中盲目追
以后为自己醉
以后管她是谁

每段感情都非常珍贵
她的好你就放在心扉
记得有个人曾让你那样的心醉

你笑了照亮夜幕的黑
什么梦都不比你的美
多少年以后想起她还有些体会
那些你已无所谓

*Quote from Fish Leong de 别再为他流泪*

Justin

Sometimes, this world can be really so small. Remembering Judee told me about this guy call Justin. And something to be surprise is that when I was working in Tower Regency Hotel like 3 months ago, there is this guy call Justin as well. He is the technician in WinCom Telephone System company. I can’t really remember what their company name. :x

Every time when something is wrong with the telephony system, we will ring the wincom and tell them to come and check about the telephone system. If serious, Ms. Pearl will come along too. But the usual person whom I deal more with is this guy call Justin as well.

That time, whenever Justin come, he will ask me. “So, what’s the problem today?” Or when I do the talking first, I will look at him and smile and say “I’ve got a present for you” and tell him about which guest complaint that they cannot call through their room or they cannot seem to make call to outside.

Ok how we used to talk is not important. I’m just over bubbly over it. Ok the main thing I’m trying to say that the Justin that Judee knows is the same Justin that works in WinCom. :x

This world really so small. :x

Kor

How would anyone of you would feel when someone you care for so much tells you that they are stress out talking to you? Whoever knows me well knows I care so much for my kor.

On this day, he told me he is stressed out talking to me. I care for him so much and so when I know he is stressed out talking to me make me feel so sad and the first thing on my mind is of coz I don’t want him to stress. However, I said something wrong with the wrong intention. I realized i have this thing, I tend to say what I really want to say into the wrong meaning and makes people misunderstands my means and got pissed or angry with me.

So I said the wrong thing and everything has became a disaster for me. Kor, I don’t know if you are reading this or not, I just want to say I’m sorry for the words I said. I just don’t want to see you stressing cause of me. We’ve known each other for 5 month plus and I’ve always feel blessed to have know you. I’ve been crying and I only hoped you can treat me as normal friend. I don’t dare to wish for much.

I hope you understands the messages I send to you. We have histories. They will always be in my memories.

KY Pan

Happy Birthday to Kim Yoong Gor. =)

Still remembering how I know you. We know through a game call Fairy Land. We get to be very close in a short time. You trusted me so much and even give me all your account’s password. You didn’t worry if I’m a hacker or a account cheater and just trust me without suspecting me. I thank you so much for trusting so much in me. =)

Still remember you send me a very touching sms.

You wrote…

每次想跟你说心事的时候， 你总是会扯回你自己的身上，继续说你的故事，真是对你又爱又恨。爱你总是那么淘气可爱，恨你总是那么不解温柔。

我只想说，真的很对不起你，每次你打给我讲心事，我都会扯回我的故事。我也恨我自己><

Maggie n Alvin’s Birthday

Happy Birthday to another good friend, Maggie Chin Mee Kee. Called her on 13th of May around 00:12am to wish her happy birthday. She was in Genting when I call her. Hope she had a joyful birthday. =)

Happy Birthday to the first guy I confessed my love to in sec school, Alvin Seah Song Yaw. He was the first guy I confessed and luckily not rejected. At least its not a direct reject, it was an indirect rejects. He only treat me as his friend. Called him as well after Mee Kee. Talk for a while and he is an Insurance Agent now. *Bravo clap clap*. He is a architect turned Insurance Agent.

Happy Birthday Once AGAIN to both of them =)

Friendship Forever, Cheers…=)