Sunday, December 16, 2012

记得要忘记

tumblr_lpk5vr1KUN1r0ydr5o1_500This is a song i accidentally found. A very old song by S.H.E. Mostly of the lyrics is about must learn to forget those memories or leave it untouched anymore. There is a song that helps in my music therapy, it’s call *As you turn away* by Lady Antebellum. *I don’t wanna let you go, but you’re already gone* *Let go of my hand, so I can feel again, nothing gonna hurt as much as that final touch,  No we can’t be friends cause I don’t think I could take seeing you and knowing where we’ve been, I hope you understand. * very meaningful song =)

I’m not sure since when I music-therapy myself to get heal…to move on…although there is always times where i will still miss him, thought of the memories and his face. No matter how, I know I have to slowly let go no matter how, accepted the fact that things won’t be the same anymore.

It’s been a month since at my new company now. Maybe I’m not good in my understanding, but I tried my best to not repeat any mistakes anymore. I don’t want to make mistakes and make Li Yen angry anymore. I can actually sense that she doesn’t like me much. Therefore i told myself to only do my best at work and ignore others. I mean we cant expect everyone to like us ma. My main purpose is to work and save more money =)

Seems to get used to the lifestyle here now, Christmas is coming everything is rushed in my company. Bought a cup for my company Christmas lunch events at Parco Cafe on the 24th of this month. This is my first year spending Christmas here, hopefully its peaceful =)

It feels so good to know when someone told you they think of you =) especially when that someone is someone you’re interested, um I mean he’s quite a nice friend. =) Get to know him through a misunderstanding. Which also because of the misunderstanding I know his name and start to pay attention to him. Starting everything was just a joke between Mei Tein and Irene when I told them I mistook him as our company staff. Things start to change when Mei Tein give me his personal email whereby they used to contact during the auditing process. I took the email and search on facebook and found him. Added him, send him a *thank you for accepting my friend request* message. Haha! It just a polite way of me =) He did reply about few days after he accepted my friend request on facebook. He only asked me once if I’m from LHN group and I say yea. Last Tuesday me and Wai Ting stayed until 9 to pack the *FU* calendar for our tenants and suppliers. It was also on Tuesday night he stayed till 9 and we left together with 2 of his colleague and took the same company bus. Never expect much and just went home as usual. It was until after I finish bathing and saw him fb message me asking me why do I OT today and we start to chat and he asked if I got whatsapp. He gave me his number and then we start to whatsapp that night. They say he got the *mom confirm approve* de face hahahaha. He looks silly but cute. Haha :X I was treating things normally until one morning he asked if I got think of him. Honestly I never expect him asking me such question but I’m happy =) He’s quite caring and sweet enough to ask me about my work in the morning. He took time to apps me even though hes in camp and busy reservists. I would say that’s some effort. =) He also told me he always here to listen to me, which actually makes me feel warm hearted. =)

Anyway, shall not put so much hope yet and goes with the flow. Get to know each other more first for now =) But my instinct tells me he’s interested in me and things are quite positive now. Told jie about things between us and she say this is the normal speed and we are progressing quite smooth and positive. We shall let the fate to decide =) Hope for the best ^_^

Friday, December 7, 2012

As you turn away~

This is quite a meaningful song for me...which the lyrics I would say is so ME! 

Sigh...




I would really agree on most of the lyrics...
especially this few part...

I don't wanna let you go...but you're already gone....
Now you kiss my cheek soft and bittersweet
I can read it in your eye baby this is our goodbye...

Nothing more to say nothing more to break ~
I keep reaching out for you...
hoping you might stay....

Nothing more to give nothing left to take~
I keep reaching out for you, reaching out for you...as you turn away...

Let go of my hand so I can feel again...
Nothing gonna hurt as much
as that final touch...
No we can't be friends 
Cause I don't think I could take seeing you 
And knowing where we've been...
I hope you understand...