wat is happening to me?

i dono why...i really dono why...wat is happening to me? im so confuse now...i feel like crying d...>_<"...

today i went to college to attend a class..our class starts 10am...as usuall was walking to 3rd floor to attend the class...met xiu min and yuk tat there...then suddenly ms.nuranie came up to ask us go down as in we are going to see the wine guide which in cd form...using comp to see of coz...see thru LCD loh..hehe^^...fortunately the class was quite fun and happy today...becos of reading the bottle wine label...those french word...is exactly diffrent slang from english...can u imagine how "sauvignon" read? it was read "saurvinion" in english...weird eh? yes indeed it is quite weird...but it was this which made the class fun...^^

class ends up at 11:40am...i went down to lobby and sitting on the sofa while waiting them...start from yesterday im thinking should i join them for lunch anot? well..in the end...i did join them for lunch...they came out at around 11:58am...then my goh come down from upstairs and sit beside me...asking me why din i tied up my hair...and wat i told him it was becoz of 2 of them(my goh & kar hing)...becos they felt weird after i tied up my hair...xiu min's comment was asking to me to tied my hair only after my hair gets more longer...i guess shes rite ba...nvm la...jus listen to her loh...nothing wrong de i guess..^^ my goh say its really quite "qi guai" after i tied up my hair...so better don tied it loh...^^

after that we all went to car park as in all of us( me,my goh,ah xiang,bee ching,kar hing,susan,wai kin,and steven...was in susan's car to go pasar pinji(bin ru gang) to have our lunch...din know tat the car is actually tat full ever since my appearance in the car...this is making me to sit on bee ching's leg..and i actually felt so "pai seh" coz the last time i sit on other ppl's leg was 10 yrs ago...and now...i really feel veli "pai seh"...>_<" my goh sit next to me..then continue with wai kin,ah xiang and steven...kar hing sits infront...
i wasn't tat happy while every one was like so happy and smiling laughing in the car...i really dono why...can anyone tell me why? i wondering do my goh feel this too? dono ler... 10 mins later we arrive there and we all go down...take the rice and pick the food tat we wan to eat and find a place sit down and enjoy our lunch...they even provide soups...wat a nice^^...and its white carot soup...tat was my favourite soup...my mom cook it as in i like it so much...although its not as tasty as my mom's cook..=P..but it taste not bad..^^

after we all finish eating our lunch...we start to chit-chatting for a while...while some ppl havent finsih their food..my goh was the 1st to finish his rice...he was fast enough...susan suggest tat we all go for a trip together...my goh them couldn't really go if the trip is set on december...becos they have organized a trip to genting with some of our ex school frens(kar kee,zhen hoong,ah fu,and foo choy of coz whos currently working at genting now...so duno when will the trip being held...

well...i guess its quite enough for today's life...today ends here...ill write again next time ler...hope tat everything is going fine and im happy everyday..^^

best regards from me, Neko Joey

complicated feelings~~

my feelings is very complicated now...duno why...mayb is becos wat bc jus told me..today i on my msn like usual...saw something..erm..i mean saw someone's tat looks familiar to me on her display pic...think and think...think and think...untill bee ching back from college then i starting to ask her about her display pic...if i wasn't mistaken...tat was jack...a guy i've been crazy b4 in my past..a guy that i've never seen b4 who live in aus now....imagine if one day i went to aus to study...tat probably would be 2 yrs later coz by tat time i need to make a big decision whether go uk or go aus...but im sure ill sure choose to study in aus...as in i've got quite alot net frens who living in aus...jack,trang,raymond,raine,lucy and who else? ahh...ya..aixin..

never though that b.c would know jack until she told me so...feel so shock to see jack's pic on b.c display pic...but however...tat was fine...she told me she chatted b4 with jack at skype..maybe jack don't really likes to chat with me tat much...or maybe is becos the type of person i am?...lolz...duno la...one more thing to suprise...my mood would turn into tat complicated when b.c told me about her and jack...though i was let down about this and he was in my past...i guess i jus feel this becos last time i likes him so much b4...well..now i can clearly tell myself that he's in my past...not now anymore..even now im listening a song that he sent me past few months ago...

suddenly got this feelings...no one cares about me...if my goh is reading this...he sure very angry...and ask me don think wrong...today is also the 1st time i chat with b.c using skype...so now i know how to use skype alr...tat was nice^^ about the phone thingy...i really nid some feedback from u all la...pls do give me some comment...my budget is below RM999...

well...today ends here...ill write again next time ler...hope tat everything is going fine and im happy everyday..^^

best regards from me, Neko Joey

half happy and half sad day...

alot of things had happen in my life...and i guess for this time...there are both happy and unhappy things...yesterday was my mom's b'day...whole of our family together with my eldest sis bf keith and my 2nd sis bf valiant and we had our dinner at a restaurant which name "overseas"...last nite we was having much fun together...well as usual i be the joke of everyone last nite...although it is not tat good to be a joke...but as in everyone of us are happy...so i guess it is nth then...

my goh on msn not long after i on mine...his msn msg was written that he's sick again...i ask him about his sick and he feels much more better after went to see the doctor...and im glad to know tat he feels better ler...

while we chatting..he told me hes not in a good mood...then i ask for the reasons...and only i know is becos of a new game which he played recently...which called "Lineage 2"...never knew tat so many ppl are playing it untill my goh tells me...jack,seal,and my goh himself is playing it...and he told me tat wilson is downloading it too...he told me tat jack and seal lvled so fast...and i told him it is a sure becos they both are real gamers...although i feel abit sad when knowing this "good news"...well..i din tell my goh how i feel this time...cos as in he alr told me that hes not in a good mood...so i decided to keep it in my heart for not affect his mood...however...in the ends...he feels it and told me...he can feel i abit sad about this...then i ask him how he knows...then he answers me "sure la..ur my sis ma.."ya...indeed i am his sis...although im only his god sis...but somehow...he can feels it...thanks and sorry goh><"

i feel sad now...and no mood too...guess tat i will go play dota or ko or wat ever games and do watever thing tat will cheer myself up...cos i feel so bad now...and no one to talk to...><"

well...today ends here...ill write again next time ler...hope tat everything is going fine and im happy everyday..^^

best regards from me, Neko Joey

half happy and half sad day...

life is turning tough for me once again...my life this few days...not really so good...many things had happend...but one thing to be happy about..and tat is see meng came to my house to live with me and stay for 1 day 1 nite...i was so glad tat she could live with me and chat with me for the whole nite...it was on tuesday she came...she waited me at McD since 5pm...but i only arrive McD and fetch her at around 5:15pm...so sorry see meng><"...well...after my mom fetch me from home...and straightly go fetch see meng ler...after fetch her...we went to fetch my younger brother who was jus finsh tuition at angkasa...and then we went home together...

we had a great time together.. we chatted in my room untill 7pm...then we went down to watch tv together...after my mum and dad came back...we had our dinner together outside a new restaurant which name "huang ting"...the food taste not bad though..^^ after that we went home...and look at the clock...its alr 9:50...then we chatted a while downstairs...and then we went upstairs to bath...she bath first then i bath loh..hehe..then we went down at around 11:30pm...we chatted in the room which next to my dad's room...we chat alot of things...we almost share everything together...and im really glad tat we both could be best fren...and i wish that we will be best fren forever too..^^she can say is the only person who knows me the most in this world...^^

we chatted about some sensitive issues too..and she did give me some uselfull advice...when we chatting...suddenly my phone vibrate and it was msg tone ringing...i take a look at my hp screen and saw kar ling sms me to ask me whether do i think is good for her to stop studying form 6 (tui xue)..i reply her that i cant give any comment coz i scare she will regret for this in the future..then me and see meng chatted untill 1:30am...we both decided to sleep ler...eventually i alr fall asleep b4 she told me she feel sleepy..=X then while im falling into sleep...my phone vibrate althought alr been set silent mode...then i take a look at it and found it was bryan...i don bother it and try to sleep again...but this time i found tat i cant sleep already...i try so hard to fall into sleep again...but i jus cant...so i jus keep rolling on the bed...untill 2:30am..then only i can sleep by tat time...tat nite..see meng told me alot of things about ah xiang...and my goh...and kar hing too..while im rolling of cant sleep...i keep thinking how fool i am to waste such a long time on a guy...its almost 6 months++

well...the other day afternoon after i finish helping see meng with her assignment...its alr 6:30pm in the afternoon...today is the 1st time i din play Knight On9 at all for a day..coz nid to help out see meng with her assignments ma...so..no choice loh..but nvm la...help see meng more important ma...games can always play next time..^^ by the time of 6:30pm...i jus finish helping with see meng's assignment..and i go to chat with my goh kazuki on msn...i told him how i felt as usual...unfortunely...all the thing he said about me is quite true...he said that...im not really wasting my time on the guy...jus tat now im "dan lian" him...i put too much of him in my heart...while i chatting with my goh...i was crying..pai seh hor...i know crying is a very embarrasing de thing...really pai seh...but this time i really beh tahan liao ma...i try not to let those tears falling down...but it did falls down in the end...><" sorry goh...i promise u b4 not to cry anymore and be more tough...but i cried..sorry goh><"

well..eventually i felt much more better after crying out...and im glad tat see meng is by my side tat time...><" thank you so much see meng...for be ther for me when im real sad..><" while im writting this blog..．im listening to 王力宏 de "爱错" and this song suites my mood very much...thanks to it..^^
well...today ends here...ill write again next time ler...hope tat everything is going fine and im happy everyday..^^

best regards from me, Neko Joey