my recent life~~

recently everyone been very busy...especially ppl around me...everything is changing...honestly I don really like this...but its not my first time facing this kind of changes about the ppl around me...the first change was during 1 yr ago..between jack, seal, and marc...but this time was with my god sis luna....

in comparison...we spoke lesser and chat lesser...memory flash back to the time we all having so much fun together in sro and skype...and now..she hang out more already...and told me to love myself more and take care myself more...this word give me a feeling that she will still care and worry about me how she used to, just tat not as much as last time...but lesser also...

there is a guy here which i know in college about 2 weeks ago...i went lunch with him once and he started to tackle me...call me to chat, ask me out...for me, of coz cant accept...in my past, every guy tat i liked...are those frens who i know them for a period of time...he is a good guy...but hes abit too desperate and tat really scared me....i told him we just be frens for now...or perhaps i should say "we should start from frens"...but he alr scares me...i think i need some time to remove my scare feelings about him...

hola went to hk last thursday...he told me he will be back around today or tml night...since hes not here...so i guess he will be back tml? tat day chatted with goh and viciuos in the same chat room at skype...talked about the way andreww sweet talk to me...out of a sudden, vicious asked me how i think about hola...i tell him everything...including the biggest secret...but he promise to help keep this as a secret...however..i still need some time to stop missing this guy...i know he might wont talk to me anymore if he knows i like him...this is also why i keep avoiding from letting him know about this...anyway i don really think he will likes me...after all, hes just another guy which i adore secretly...with no starting and no ending as well...now just wait for next month, a day after my birthday...i wan to see tat hohoho got buy prezzie for me anot..=P