Tears.

I cried. Was playing mahjong with my Eldest Sis and my younger brother. I was taking a new cards and suddenly I cried. They freaked out. It was so sudden. It’s been a while since I last cried. All this while when I cannot always tell anyone about my day, I will just keep to myself for most of the time. Kept too long, exploded I guess. =/

But it didn’t last so long la of course, I mean I didn’t cry for a very long time, maybe only 5 Mins? ^^

 

Happiness. :)

Finally, my dear little niece is 1 month old. :) May she grow up happily and safely. ^^

Today, on the other hand, it’s also both my colleague’s wedding, Daniel and Cindy. Happy Wedding :)

This was my first time attending church wedding. We always see how those Ang Mo getting married in a movie, a show or even in a video. But this time, I experienced it and I feel so touching when the moment both Daniel and Cindy say the vows to each other, promised to each other to be true to each other, love and care for each other for the rest of their lives. However, this kind of wedding is really simple and relax, no rushing, less headaches. I like this type of wedding, same goes to Ivan. Guess this kind of wedding is just make people feel relax. Chinese tradition wedding is much much complicated in comparison.

The song I’m listening was intro by my best friend. We both love piano songs, it somehow soothes our soul, this song always bring me to a peaceful world in myself. I feel so relax and peace every single time listening to it. Life does go on no matter how bad your day is, no one knows what will happened ahead and we can only stay positive and focus on what we are doing every single day. Thanks so much to my best friend Ivan, I am far more positive now compare to last time. I tend to think things in a more positive way nowadays. :)

Lately, some phrase keeps on rolling in my mind, *What will be, will be*. What is meant to be, it will meant by itself someday. Maybe not yet, maybe not now, but if something is meant to be, then it will eventually.

I know we should focus on what we want for our future, and that we should always look forward rather than look backward. The world just doesn’t goes that way. However, I am someone who always love to put myself into a time slot which already passed, and review back everything in that *past time* slot. Time does not wait for anyone and we should always cherish every moment we are having now cause these moments may not be the same anymore in the future. Ivan always tell me that we all should be always grateful and thankful of what we have now. Gee, I’m missing the old days so so much now. But I feel so glad that I cherished every moment in my life.

I have a job to do, I have wonderful parents and family, I have awesome best friends, I can afford to buy things I like *depends whether I am keen enough to buy that stuff :x*, I have my dearest brother who loves me and sisters who always be there for me and care about me, I have a superb cute and adorable bibi to hug. ^^ I feel so thankful and grateful. Thanks God for giving all these to me. :) I might not be a wonderful person, but I tried my best in doing everything. *Komawo* *Gam Unn Ah* ^.Y

 

As time passes by, the date is getting closer and closer each day. Feeling unbearable? Yes, definitely. I will surely miss all of them Who would I miss the most when I leave? I would say its Felicia, Stella, and Stephy. I love to see Felicia especially when she smiles. So sweet and pretty, plus her skin is very fair ^^. I love to talk to Stella or call her Stella Dior instead of Teoh. She is so funny and often makes me laugh so happily. Working life become so less dull without her, in fact, she brightens up my day everyday when I’m sad or moody or just got scolded by customers. Stephy, most probably is because I feel closer to her more because we know each other since we are in the college. She has a quite good looking handsome boyfriend. Most importantly she’s very into movies and we can always talk about movies or tv series.

4 months in DiGi, I’ve known nice colleagues, learned about the work life in a telco company, experienced difficult customers and understand customer’s frustration and feelings. Actually most of them are not totally fussy, they just want us to understand how they feel when some circumstances happened. From my experience, every customers who come and fuss at me, I will listen to them about why they are so fuss and try to help them resolve by showing them that I understand how they feel. Apart from my job, I’m a consumer too, so its understandable sometimes. Luckily my father didn’t subscribe any line with digi, else it will be the biggest headache for us all :x *Zipped*

Jaz left me with no replies. Tried to message him but still no reply. Lost all my hope and stop sms-ing him anymore. Darling just came back from her trip in China, always wanting to play audi with her but every time she’s with ping guo for sure because they are audi couples mar. It somehow makes me feel so uncomfortable seeing them in pairs when I’m alone. I really hope to find a stable relationship, God, please bless me to find someone good soon, I don’t need someone rich, just caring and funny and non-smoker. That’s the only things I asked for. :(


Till then, I want a boyfriend. :( 

E m p t y .

Feeling a little relax after submitting my *FINALIZED* industrial report just now at 6:50pm. This report has been postponed by ME 3 years ago to further notice due to to my laziness. Can’t help it bah, lazy lazy me :x

It’s has been 3 days since Ivan went to Shah Alam for his training. At this very moment, I feel so…empty. Got no idea why do I feel so but this is how I feel now. I’m not sure if Ivan reads the email I sent to him a night before his leaving to Shah Alam last Sunday. Even though I didn’t manage to get the job, I’m still glad that he’s into this now, a bright future is waiting for him. Honestly, I feel more happy back then before we both work together in the same place. We talk on the phone, we go out together, those were no longer there ever since we work at the same place, but in fact, more arguments. I feel so sad every time after we argue. I hate this feelings of us arguing even though It’s about me mostly. I really wish we can back to how we used to be. By the 22nd of this month, it will be the day we both know each other for 1 year. 1 year ago we met in Starbucks and we became best friends in 2 months time. Haha, time flies I guess.  Of all the photos we took together, this is my favorite.

Something shocked me so much when I surf through facebook. Sen is married and with a 1 and half year old son! Omgoshhh *Heartbroken* wahahaha joking de, I used to admire him so much back in Dorsett. He is just so cute and handsome, however, my deepest blessings for you sen and your wife and the cute cute junior sen.

Just finish talking with gor gor on the phone. I told him about my contract ending in September. He told me he bought SC2 LOL. Star craft 2 I mean. *Uh Hum* It has been so long for the star craft fans because it somehow took too long a time to finish this masterpiece. It been so long since we both last talk on the phone and also meet up. We talked for almost an hour and was enjoy with it, he’s always my favorite gor gor ^^

Another 5 weeks of time my eldest sis is getting married and so is the ending of my contract in DiGi. I’m going to have little nephew on October. Looking forward soo much to meet my cute little nephew~ ^^ Thought of go for a vacation when my contract ends.

Still considering about buying iPod Touch. Discussed with bro and asked for his opinion. Waiting for his answer

Till then, that’s all for now. Peace

Released.

It’s been really so long, and finally it has come to an end. A quite good ending I would say actually whereby he is happy with his life now for he has someone he loves to care for him and love him now. Honestly I feel so glad that he has someone for him to be with and also someone able to take care of him and love him for him. I feel released. Thanks for all the memories you’ve given to me, I’ll cherish them in my memory. Thanks for all the happy times you’ve given to me. I will never regret of the days being in love with you. But since you got yourself someone to care for you, perhaps it’s time for me to really get move on. :)

This reminds me of a song call “You’re in love” by Wilson Phillips. It is indeed a classic old song but the lyrics really speaks out my heart.

Open the door and come in
I'm so glad to see you my friend
Don't know how long it has been
Having those feelings again.
And now I see that you're so happy
And ooh, it just sets me free
And I'd like to see
Us as good of friends
As we used to be
[Chorus:]
Aah, my love, Aah
You're in love
That's the way
It should be
'Cause I want you to be happy
You're in love
And I know
That you're not in love with me
Ooh it's enough
For me to know
That you're in love
Now I'll let you go
'Cause I know
That you're in love
Sometimes it's hard to believe
That you're never coming back to me
I've had this dream that you'd always be by my side
Oh I could have died.
But now I see that you're so happy
And ooh, it just sets me free.
And I'd like to see
Us as good of friends
As we used to be
[Chorus]
I tried to find you but you were so far away
I was praying that fate would bring you back to me
Someday, someday, someday... Ooh, you're in love
Ooh it's enough
For me to know
That you're in love
Now I'll let you go
'Cause I know
That you're in love

I really wish to see us as good friends again. :)

I love you very much therefore I got to pull myself out no matter how hard it is and no matter how long it gonna take, so things will be better for all of us. Consider on her position, I think of myself. Therefore I decided to move back to the place of being your good friend. Friends ma, I know and that’s exactly what I wanted to stay as your good friend. I truly hope that you will still treat me as your good friend since I know you quite well already *that’s how I think la :x* :)

Cherish her more and treat her better. I know you will :)

My most important advice to you, I know all this long in your whole life, everything has been so negative to you, but this thinking is not healthy. What’s the use of keep being negative when things already negative? You’ve got try to think positively because positive is always better than negative. The Law of Attraction taught us that we have to stay positive to attract the positive things to us. So, try to be positive! I’ll still be there to support you because you’re my good friend ma. Remember, you’re not idiot, you’re the best in yourself. There is only one you, no one can replace you. We all are unique because there is no one like us. Stay happy! :)

P/s: We will always be good friends, right? ^^ I will still support you and be there for you because you are my good friend. :)

Events.

12 days to~ 

and

15 days to

I wonder who will remember my birthday this year. Wonder how would my 22nd’s birthday will be. At this moment, I can only wish and hope for the best. Law of attraction says we must be positive and so we will attract positive things to us. :)

Progress.

The past 1 week has been the worst days of my life, so I’m gonna skip it. Exam is getting nearer and nearer. I study everyday from day to late night. However, I decide to update my blog during my half hour of rest time. Lots of things happened in the past 1 week. I don’t want to talk about it because it was the worst week of my life in this year.

Human Resources Progress

75%

F&B Progress

50%

Management Accounting

40%

I’m gonna make all these to be 100% in this week!.

Gambateh Joey!

Everything will be fine, I’m studying very hard everyday. Gonna strive harder! I wanted to take this chance to thanks him for motivating me to study harder. Thanks a lot, I won’t be this motivated without your encouragement. Your supports means a lot to me. Thanks :) Gonna continue study. Aja aja fighting Joey! :)

 

Someday In Fitting Room.

Can’t really remember how, where and when did this photo been taken. But I do remember it was taken by my brother. I like this shirt though. The price? RM 39.90 so ends up didn’t buy and own it. However, it was Converse. :x I want this shirt. T.T

Worst Friday Ever.

Too much had happen, too tough to go through, I can’t face it all by myself. Hereby, I would like to thanks a few person who go through it with me. Firstly, my jie who pei me cry. Secondly, my dear daughter dotti who pei me on phone till 3am+. Eyes got swollen, cried so much last night. It would be definitely the worst Friday ever.

People say when all bad things happen in a shot, good things will come. I truly hope so. I’m so sorry Mammi, I don’t mean to hide the incident from you, I know I shouldn’t. So Sorry. T.T

My wish.

I wish I know how to fill in the quota that I’m lack of. I wish I’m good enough for anyone. I wish to sit in a hot air balloon and travel in the sky with the one I love. :)

Birthday Girl Tze Yuin :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TZE YUIN! May you have a great ones. Best wishes from me to you. :)

Hope you won’t mind I use your photo to blog, cause it’s your birthday mar :x This year I even call to sg to wish you leh! Hope you like it :)

Been knowing you for almost 10 years now. Thanks for all the tolerations between us and also please forgive me if I made you angry in the past. Still remember that time we go tuition together and I always go to your house. We chit chat, we sms, we surf net in your house, and we eat very spicy tom yum mee together. Those days are still in my mind and will always be in my memories that we had together. We even write letter to each other. Haha. I bet you don’t remember already la. :x

 

The Letter

 

  Your Signature :x

Once again, Happy Birthday Tze Yuin, friends forever, we must keep in touch :)

Future.

Been thinking a lot about what I want in my life and my plans for my future. Wanted so much to work in sg after I clear my papers. After my exam next month, 3 more subjects to go! WOOTS! Gambateh neh Joey! =D

First thing of all, I must clear all my papers as soon as I can before I can graduate. I cannot afford another *R* word on my profile. I must no matter how spend more time to study! I swear to myself that I must graduate by December next year. I MUST! Too much time has been wasted!

We must not let despair or negative thing to manifest my life anymore! I remember what the secret teach me. We must be positive then only we can attracts the positive things to be happen.  Yes!. :)

Due to the new opening of a food court near my house by the name of GP, I’ve met a lot of my old primary school friends. Min Yee, Chai Huey, Yu Mei, Zhen Hui, and a lot more. But, the most unexpected to met one is Shen Yao Guang. Ever since I finish my pri school, I never ever plan to meet him back ever in my life. But I just did. LOL -.- I remember in my memories of my pri school life, I don’t really like him much, used to hate him for some reason but it was too long ago, I don’t even remember a thing about him except his name. He didn’t change much so I can still recognize his face. Bah, I won’t be seeing him again I hope! =s

ARGH,

I REALLY CAN’T WAIT TO GO MY SG TRIP NEXT MONTH. ><

He’s Just Not That Into You.

Watch this movie because Er Jie ask me to watch. She said it’s a good movie and I should watch it. It was quite an educational movie. I give it 8 / 10.

Some of the quotes is true,

“Girls are taught a lot of stuff growing up. If a guy punches you he likes you. Never try to trim your own bangs and someday you will meet a wonderful guy and get your very own happy ending. Every movie we see, Every story we're told implores us to wait for it, the third act twist, the unexpected declaration of love, the exception to the rule. But sometimes we're so focused on finding our happy ending we don't learn how to read the signs. How to tell from the ones who want us and the ones who don't, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. And maybe a happy ending doesn't include a guy, maybe... it's you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. Maybe the happy ending is... just... moving on. Or maybe the happy ending is this, knowing after all the unreturned phone calls, broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment you never gave up hope.”

But seriously, Scarlett Johansson do have a very good body shape. I totally agree with my brother and understands why he made her as his Goddess.

Christmas.

Christmas has always been a warm season of all the year. Although it’s always end of the year, but I love Christmas. Christmas this year is meant to be more special compare to the past few years because I’m gonna celebrate it in Singapore. It’s been year I wanted to celebrate my Christmas in Singapore because they said Singapore has the most beautiful lightings during Christmas time. Bonus is, I plan to meet some important persons when I go Singapore next month. The first to meet is of course my aunt and my dear cousins because I’ll be staying at their house. Secondly, it would be my jie. I wanted to spend lots of time with her, wandering around and talk non stop. That’s if she is free to meet up with me. =/ But most of all, the one I wanted to meet the most, is him. I know it’s not a sure that he will even wants to meet me, but I really really hope and wanted to meet up with him and spend time with him even just for a while. I can’t wait till Christmas. >< How I wish I can turn the time faster, so Christmas will be here when I wake up tomorrow morning. Sigh, I know it’s not possible at all. I’m just dreaming. ><

A lot has been said and I know it very well. I will try harder. >< A lot of bad things keep on happen to me, I cannot handle this alone, can anyone supports me? Comfort me and console me by pop-up me on msn? T.T I know bad times will go, there will be sunshine after the rain, but I really need someone to tell me that now. ><

Left 4 Dead

Francis, Bill, Zoey, & Louis.

Now I finally understand what Judee mention about *Boomer* earlier. It is a shooting game which is similar to CS. Just that it is much more extreme and much interesting *some say*.

My best friend even told me that some of his friends even vomit after playing this game for a while. For me, although its my first time playing this game, I don’t really feel vomit, only abit dizzy la. But I can still play this game because me and my brother played Doom when we were young. Talking about this game call Doom. I still remember we have to go to the Dos mode only we can play this game. We even use cheat codes to play :x The cheat codes are IDDQD for all God mode *which means wont die* and also IDKFA for all weapons equipped. The 7th Gun is the most powerful ones. :x

In this Left 4 Dead game, there are a few monster I met in the game, Boomer, Snooker, and Hunter. I heard the most scary would be the *Witch*. I was told when the *Witch* is getting nearer, you can hear woman crying, and when you hear that, you have to off your flashlight else the *Witch* will come to you and you’ll be dead for sure. GG-ed. So far, I’ve never met *Witch* yet. Spend 1 hour plus playing this game in Infinity. Thanks Ivan for intro me this game. xD Had a quite happy day playing this game. XD

Here are some of the monster I hate the most.

The First One, Let’s Welcome…..

Mr. Boomer * Yuck*

His tactic is to vomit on one of us and explode. -.-

The Second One, Let’s Welcome….

Mr. Smoker

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

He will spread out a gas which can damage our life bar.

The Third which I hate the most of all,

Mr. Hunter

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

The End.

Gratitude

Finally paid my debts. It’s really so *heavy* and very *pain* on me. T.T

Everyone will surely face problems. It will occurs in everyone’s life everyday. The key to solve problems is to calm ourselves down and find a solution to solve the problems we faced. Try telling it to friends and they might be able to give some opinions and guidelines which can be use on solving your problems. :)

I forgot to bring back my Coke Glass Cup before I left McD just now. T.T So heart pain, the whole set cost me RM 15 plus a sundae chocolate. T.T

A lot of bad things keep happening to me lately, thanks to all my friends who supports me when I’m having a bad time in my life. Hereby, I thank all of you for supporting me as always :)

I agree with Ivan, we must be gratitude. We must not forget to say thanks or thank you to whoever helped us and supported us during the hard times. :)

Thank You.

Arigato Gozaimasu

Kamsah Hamidah

Xie Xie

Terima Kasih

:)

Thanks.

Thanks to a friend of mine, I came by to know something about myself. Nana, I feel so sorry for irritated you all this while. I will never ever know if you never tell me. It must been so hard to stand me.

I am truly sorry. I don’t know what should I say anymore.

It’s gonna take time, but I’ll change. I promise. I’m really so sorry ><

Picture is telling stories. :)

This time, I’m gonna let the pictures do the talking. Never did this before, but saw it in my friend’s blog before. So I’m gonna try it.

I mean it. :)

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Wedding Dream.

Finally saw Er Jie’s wedding gown. Thought of myself. I took Er Jie’s wedding gown and put on my body. The gown is so pretty and I’m sure Er Jie will look so pretty when she wears it. :) But ler, it looks so funny on me because I’m not tall enough to even wear my Er Jie’s wedding gown. :x Er Jie even say, “next time you have to tailor make your wedding gown lar” =S

Anyway, everything is still too early to say. I’m not even sure If I ever have the chance to wear that and marry the one I love and then spend my whole life with. I am a very loyal and devoted person. That’s what almost everyone who knows me say de.

I believe every girl did dream about how they want their wedding to be. Wearing white gown and hold by parent’s hand walking in a church. Papa gave my hand to him, I smile happily. Until the moment, I said I do and then we kissed. Or perhaps having a wedding in a garden? Just a small one will do, I am a very simple person, I don’t need fancy fancy big wedding. Just simple as nice, as long as the one I marry is the one I love, that’s the only thing matters to me. :) Receive blessings by my family and also friends. Marry with the one they love is every girl’s dream la, it’s normal, so don’t blame me for dreaming :x

What a beautiful dream, but it still so so so far away. I don’t even have anyone who wants me now. Hah. However, accidentally watch Bride Wars that day, I love Kate Hudson’s wedding gown. Simple as nice. I even did some research on it, it was design by a creative woman call Vera Wang. The wedding gown that Kate Hudson wears in Bridal War was her Fall Collection 2005.

 

Closer Look. :P

Isn’t it simple and nice? ^^

P/s: I wrote this not because I wanted to get marry so much, I’m just dreaming ^^

Hope.

Time flies, soon it’s going to be November le. I got to start to do my revision le. I can’t afford to fail anymore. God please bless me the best for my future undertaking.

Human Resources: 50% bah :x

F&B: Erm, I think got 40% la :x

Management Accounting: 20% T.T

Cham le, gonna work harder for accounts le, other 2 subject I still can handle, but accounting is really making me so worry. T.T

Let’s work hard before I enjoy my trip in sg when December comes. =P Just nice timing, because my finals will be on Starting of December, so I might be able to go earlier once my exam finish! Let’s just hope for the best to come. It will be fine, everything will be fine :)

Been wanting to buy phone so much lately. Mama is going to lend me money to buy it, but my decision of buying Nokia’s phone or SE’s phone is shaking. What is wrong with me? I thought all this while I have been a Nokia fans and I’m shaking? =/

Suddenly I thought of something someone told me, he said, as long as you love yourself, other people will love you. So far those bad points he think I should throw away, I think I almost finish throwing le, maybe still got balance 15% la, but I will work more hard to throw the remaining 15% away! :)

2 months later from today, it will be my birthday. Hope I will have a happy happy birthday this year. I don’t wan to celebrate alone anymore T.T Thinking of how it feels when I celebrated my birthday alone during my 20th birthday 2 years ago. I will never ever want to go through the same situation anymore. T.T