Unexpected Events

It was rather an unexpected events that happens on boxing day, as I was turning into a side parking and accident happens. I wouldn't want to go through the details of how it happen, as a summary I was on my way to meet Veronica for a high tea but ends up I paid RM400 to settle everything for the accident.

Guess somebody would think why don’t take it to the police station and settle it there but as any Malaysian would know by reporting a police report you will have to pay RM300 no matter who’s fault it is. Not to mention the medical examination and stuffs which will drag for hours. Towards accident which involves car and motorcycle, they will often biased on the motorcyclist even if it’s their fault.

Positive Points

• Less trouble *I don’t need to bring her for all the check-ups
• Time saving *Police report consume lots of precious time”"*
• Probably won’t be seeing her again as she’s from JB *Thank GOD*

Negative Points

• Compensation Fee for RM400 *Heartache*
• Fear for motorcyclist

Summary

I will need to be extra careful in driving in the future especially around motorcycle.

有人会知道吗？

好想你

此刻 好多的感触  心痛得就要哭了 其实眼泪在眼里打转着

姐说，会过去的。 是的，此刻的一切 都会成为过去，但是 ♥还是不停地痛着

心想说，可以放得下。。。事实却是已经尝试了一段时间

却依然想念 好像大声地告诉他，傻佬，我好想你，尤其是你叫我傻婆的时候

你曾经问我说，喜欢你的陪伴吗？我说是的。。。

你说过会抽时间陪我的，怎么都忘了呢?

我喜欢你，我想你大概也是知道，曾经你也说过：我知道你对我很好 可是。。。。。

你说你习惯了一个人的生活 一个人的时间  就是习惯了 “一个人”

你却不知道我心里 是多么的想在你身边 陪你

最近常常听到 韦礼安 唱着 ”多希望在你身边的是我“

毫无保留的唱出我的心声。。但是你的坚持 把我推得远远地

即使对你再好 你也不会被我感动到吧。。。

我真的好想你。。。。你毕竟在我心里都住几年了

却无能为力。。。。好无奈啊。

Azzura

It was quite an experience but don't really like it much. Maybe I'm born a non club person ha-ha. Free drinks is the only good thing in my point.

Unbearable

No one knows how much I wanted to be with my family. But my money is running and I'm in debt. This is the only fastest way to clear my debt and able to go travel around the world with my friends. 

 

I just wanted a year to go out and see a different world and then I'll come back. Perhaps it's childish to some people. It's not that I'm thinking things will be easy for me out in singapore but I wanted to experience different things while I still can.

 

I wish someone could understand me at this very moment, but then again I can only hope for the best. Wish me luck peeps.

 

Front view

First time sitting on such view, feel abit weird though :x 

2014 2014?

Today is a day it is said to  appear only 19 years once. A day just happens to be 元宵 aka *Zhap Goh Meh* falls on the same day as Valentines Day. Haha. “Happy Valentines Day” Sor Lou wished me on apps.

My thought for today is, “Rather being alone than celebrating today with someone I don’t love. “  I can’t guarantee my plaster is useful on your wound, but I will always be there holding a plaster whenever you need.

It’s been years since that incident happened. I’m not sure if this is fated, the day when we were talking about what we thought of each other, its the same day 3 years later you got your heart broken for the first time. What is the god trying to tell me? It sounds creepy but it really shocked me when I read back our chat log 3 years back.

You may not know but you have a special place in my heart since that *Thor* story night.

However, Happy Valentines Day, Sor Lou. :)

Perhaps.

It’s been some time since I last on my garena. I used to have a valid reason for that but recently that reason is no longer valid.

I have come to accept the fact of the things we both wanted is so different. You wanted someone who doesn’t mind for nothing serious but feels good to spend time together, stress free kind of companionship, you said. You also tend to goes with feelings nowadays, you said. I wanted a relationship but you wanted companionship. I will never able to give you what you want. I must say I have did the best I can the last time we met up. But I guess things between us just doesn’t work out. Should I thank you for not rejecting me? Anyway that doesn’t really make much difference I guess. I’m already letting you go.  I feel its better for me to distance myself from anything related to you at least for a period of time. Didn’t talk much doesn’t mean we are not friends anymore right? Well I think you don’t really care much about me anyways.

It’s almost been 2 months since we last contact. Spacie say you should able to understand why. I guessed. Thanks to my job actually, cause I was able to occupy my time on work than missing you, but after all, do you even care? I guess not. When you apps me 2 months back asking if I’m inactive in game, my first thought was “hmmm, since when you care?” It may not be so nice to say so but that’s just how you made me feel for the past few months. You will never know how many times I thought of you and the things we did together, especially the way you look at me that night. It sounds funny perhaps now to you cause it might meant nothing much to you. I was silly to have thought that we could be together someday, I really did thought of that before.

I really hope all the best to you despite how we ended up not talking like now. Perhaps this situation is also good for both of us, at least for now.

我以为

说不在乎，也以为一点都不在乎。当听到他的消息时，突然间，想念他了。 不知道这样算不算不争气？又或许因为昨晚的梦？很混乱…可是又如何？他根本不在乎我嘛…

我和自己约会

不懂从何开始, 喜欢在写blog的时候听这首歌

或许是因为这首歌会让我更爱自己吧

歌词很贴切，实在有一段蛮长的时间，没有好好的爱自己

过去的几个月，都在好好的尽力去爱他

好好让他开心，甚至去那边陪他

那几天的相处我是很开心 有人会说：太主动了吗？

对我来说，可能是人到了某些阶段

思想的东西不一样 要的东西也变得不一样了

懂得想要就要争取

可以做的我都做了

然而，如果到了最后，付出一切的努力争取了

结果还是得不到，就算了。。。

至少有努力过就好了，尽力了，虽然还记得说，

我曾经告诉自己，努力的争取与付出，无论结果如何，只能 leave it to fate

毕竟说的时候简单 到真正要做的时候，其实蛮难的。。。

抽身而退, 不简单

一件事就算再美好，一旦沒有結果，就不要糾纏，久了你會倦，會累。一個人，就算再留戀，如果你抓不住，就要適時放手，久了你會神傷，，會心碎。有時，放棄是另一種堅持，任何事，任何人，都會成為過去，不要跟它過不去，無論多難，我們都要學會抽身而退。

我到不了

即时有多么的无奈, 又能怎样? 都已经告白过了

在我的立场, 我可以做的, 都做了, 我可以说我是真的努力过了

其余的, 也只能 leave to fate.

真的好想你。现在发现，想念一个人却不能说出口，是多么的辛苦，一点都不好受

其实最近已经算是比较好了，至少都skype了两天。现在我只想维持现状，我就很满足了。就如你说，等我过去再说，那就等吧。有时会想说，到底你在乎我吗？我所做的一切，你能感受得到吗？我是那么的喜欢你，实在是没办法。

迷迷糊糊

迷迷糊糊的就喜歡上一個人，這不是喜歡上這個人，而是喜歡戀愛的感覺。一個人對自己好一點，就喜歡上了， 也不是真正的喜歡，只是喜歡上這份好。這時，會把開心與否，全部寄托在戀情上，寄托在心上人身上，自己的心，是隨對方情緒起伏不定，左右搖擺的，自己毫無辦法，沒有主動權，這就是在愛裏迷失。

真的 很贴切

Yes I Love You

Love You Love You May I Love You.

手已經圍好城堡 心也已經備好浪潮
快完成等待完成的擁抱
別說你還沒有感覺到
我所給你的微笑 不只微笑

Love you Love you Yes I love You

你聽見了嗎'
這是我第一千遍第一萬遍心裏的回答
那身邊的人經過的人我都不牽掛
我只去 你想要去的天涯

心

我没有你女神那么性感 没有鬼鬼那么可爱 更没有米可的身材，但我想他们都是虚幻的，只有我是真的哦！ 我只有一颗喜欢你的心~

习惯

跟你聊天，已经变成我的习惯了。真的不知道，我习惯了有你存在我的世界里，你是否也会习惯了有我的存在?

If only you know…

I wished for many things in my life. But at this very moment, my wishes lies in you. A lot of times, I really wish I am there to share with you. Small wishes that you will never know, because I won’t say it out in front of you.

I don’t want to overthink things. I just wish things could just remain as it is like now.

No matter how much worries I have, I can only do the best thing by being myself as usual~ After all, I am just me. =/ Not sure what I’m trying to say. I don’t seems to get tired talking to you. How I wish I could just tell you how I feel at this moment. I start to ask myself, “can we be more than just friends?” “is it possible?” because I feel comfortable around you. I have to say not many people can make me feel that way. You’re probably the 2nd person who can make me feel this way. Never knew how strong it is until something happened. I feel threatened by it. I am worried. But then again, what can I do but quietly blogging while listening to yiruma’s song hope it can calm me.  My first confession to you. =/

Ubah, Ini Karilah?

A very hot and powerful slogan which recently very popular due to our country election tomorrow, 4 years once. For as long as I lived, I never experienced such huge urge for us Malaysian who wanted a change of government so badly. Everyone in the world, every Malaysian, which also including actors, singers and entertainers are coming back from all around the world, just for tomorrow’s big event.

Sadly, I was not eligible to vote. I pray hard for tomorrow’s election,

“This is the Curry! ” =P

We went to eat steamboat to celebrate Tuck Leong’s birthday. Took a picture and tagged him together with See Meng and Kar Ling and Jin Hao in facebook, written:

“又大一岁了，友谊万岁！”

Due to what happened for the past one week, I have learnt a big lesson, think thoroughly of every decision you made, weight the pros and cons, and also be careful of what we wished for. Every action comes with a consequences needed to bear, HOWEVER, Decision has been made ! I will go according to my plan for sure !

I know what my heart wants and I will follow it !

雨是甜的

雨是甜的

大雨傾盆而下的這一刻,
比起相遇那天還要適合,
我哭了,雨捨不得­,
你越模糊了. 
走著走著回憶吧我圍著,
一個人的城市沒有顏色,
彩虹呢,雨狂嘯著­,
聽著夢醒了. 
眼淚苦苦的,雨是甜的 
所以還記得,注定一起躲雨的我們,
時光滴答著,美得像詩歌,我們愛了.
眼淚苦苦的,雨是甜的
堅強回家了
泡在溫水裡等心回溫, 
回憶都涼著,慢慢風乾了 
傷的,總會癒合 
愛情苦苦的,雨是甜的 
偶爾還記得,曾經一起躲雨的我們 
時光滴答著,值不值得 真心愛的 
愛情苦苦的,雨是甜的 
月光太清澈,照著我一個人輾轉翻側 放了,
我會試著快樂 放了,我就值得快樂

I will...

I promised myself I will find someone who pei me to mayday concert next year ! :/ I dono how long I need to get over him but I know someday I will let him go completely. I miss my dii I'm missing my colleague , I feel so lonely :(