Hurtful

Can anyone define possessive for me? Towards someone tat i really love before, i am possessive, but towards him I'm not. I admit i do like him a little bit, but i ain't possessive towards him. My heart is so pain, i feel so bad now.

♥ ing This Song So Much ^^

Taking a trip down memory lane
Things have changed One thing remains
That they will always have each other
And even though those days have gone
They know here is where they belong
There’s some kinda magic in the air
Feel the warmth
That only summer breezes can bring
Sweet little notes of spring begin
Nothing to fear

Taking one step at a time
Walking hand in hand
1 2 3 4
Cheek to cheek
And They’re learning How to do that dance
Let this love be forever more they say
I wish for this, to be true for you and me
Holding her close he leading the way
Out at the park Enjoying the Day
And you can tell They’ll be ok
Feel the warmth
That only summer breezes can bring
Sweet little notes of spring begin
Nothing to fear
Taking one step at a time
Walking hand in hand
1 2 3 4
Cheek to cheek
And They’re learning How to do that dance
Let this love be forever more they say
I wish for this, to be true for you and me

Taking one step at a time
Walking hand in hand
1 2 3 4
Cheek to cheek
And They’re learning How to do that dance
Let this love be forever more they say
I wish for this, to be true for you and me
To be true for you and me
To be true for you and me
You and me
You and me

Friendship

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My Big Day. :)

A week has passed, finally its my big day. Birthday this year seems so peaceful, no big celebration but it’s quite meaningful for me. Thanks to everyone who give me my birthday blessings on my big day in all ways including sms, phone calls or even facebook. I sincerely feel thankful and grateful of having you all as my friends. :)

Last night, my brother took me out and went to fetch Joevy and Ivan to Breeze Cafe to celebrate my birthday eve. Even though just 4 of us, I feel happy enough. Thanks Ivan for the bear, we are best friends forever :) Thanks Joevy for the cup, we are ji muiz forever :)

From Ivan :)

From Joevy

 

Joevy, Jason n Joey :D

Best Friends Forever :)

Us

Thanks so much for this meaningful day. :)

Released.

It’s been really so long, and finally it has come to an end. A quite good ending I would say actually whereby he is happy with his life now for he has someone he loves to care for him and love him now. Honestly I feel so glad that he has someone for him to be with and also someone able to take care of him and love him for him. I feel released. Thanks for all the memories you’ve given to me, I’ll cherish them in my memory. Thanks for all the happy times you’ve given to me. I will never regret of the days being in love with you. But since you got yourself someone to care for you, perhaps it’s time for me to really get move on. :)

This reminds me of a song call “You’re in love” by Wilson Phillips. It is indeed a classic old song but the lyrics really speaks out my heart.

Open the door and come in
I'm so glad to see you my friend
Don't know how long it has been
Having those feelings again.
And now I see that you're so happy
And ooh, it just sets me free
And I'd like to see
Us as good of friends
As we used to be
[Chorus:]
Aah, my love, Aah
You're in love
That's the way
It should be
'Cause I want you to be happy
You're in love
And I know
That you're not in love with me
Ooh it's enough
For me to know
That you're in love
Now I'll let you go
'Cause I know
That you're in love
Sometimes it's hard to believe
That you're never coming back to me
I've had this dream that you'd always be by my side
Oh I could have died.
But now I see that you're so happy
And ooh, it just sets me free.
And I'd like to see
Us as good of friends
As we used to be
[Chorus]
I tried to find you but you were so far away
I was praying that fate would bring you back to me
Someday, someday, someday... Ooh, you're in love
Ooh it's enough
For me to know
That you're in love
Now I'll let you go
'Cause I know
That you're in love

I really wish to see us as good friends again. :)

I love you very much therefore I got to pull myself out no matter how hard it is and no matter how long it gonna take, so things will be better for all of us. Consider on her position, I think of myself. Therefore I decided to move back to the place of being your good friend. Friends ma, I know and that’s exactly what I wanted to stay as your good friend. I truly hope that you will still treat me as your good friend since I know you quite well already *that’s how I think la :x* :)

Cherish her more and treat her better. I know you will :)

My most important advice to you, I know all this long in your whole life, everything has been so negative to you, but this thinking is not healthy. What’s the use of keep being negative when things already negative? You’ve got try to think positively because positive is always better than negative. The Law of Attraction taught us that we have to stay positive to attract the positive things to us. So, try to be positive! I’ll still be there to support you because you’re my good friend ma. Remember, you’re not idiot, you’re the best in yourself. There is only one you, no one can replace you. We all are unique because there is no one like us. Stay happy! :)

P/s: We will always be good friends, right? ^^ I will still support you and be there for you because you are my good friend. :)

Ouch. T.T

It’s aching so badly. I feel so so hurt. T.T

Eyes swelled and pain. T.T

A Song I dedicate for myself.

 

我知道我很难过... T.T

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I can hear the sound of my heart broken into pieces. It’s irritating and hurting my ears every second every minute. The pieces of my heart is shattered all over. I am stunned sitting on the ground didn’t know what to do. I am collapsing.

It’s bleeding non stop, anyone kind enough to borrow me a plaster?  It’s so painful and I don’t know how to react. My other senses became malfunction for I can only feel pain now especially the pain in my heart. Only him can cure the pain that I’m going through now. But will he cure me once again?

All this while, I’ve been trying my best and very hard to be a good girl to him. Guai guai listen to what he says, he asked me to study harder for my exam, I listened to him and study non stop from day to night. I didn’t even dare to rest even when my brain is overload and cause headaches in me. I’ve been loving him ever since June and it didn’t really stop even after August 17th. Yes August 17th, I will never forget how sad I am that night. Singing falling slowly and crying so badly but I didn’t dare to tell him. I act normal in front of him.

No matter what he told me, I listen and I love it. I don’t even care whether what he told me was lies or not. I love him still. I love his lies and I love him for who he is. No matter how good he say I am, no matter how he know how much I love him and how much I need him, no matter how he say I could be a better gf,  or perhaps like he said I am cute in my own ways, but it all doesn’t matter anymore when he’s chosen her even when I’m better than her like he said. What did I do wrong? If I’m really this good like he said, why am I not chosen? I can give up everything for him, even I am so eager to work in sg is also because of him. What’s the use of me being a good girl anymore when he doesn’t even like me?

I am collapsing, drowning in the sea of love, can anyone kind enough to give me a hand or perhaps a rope? My heart so so pain >< </3 I only hope for him to care for me, he said he will still care for me, I really hope he do, that’s the only thing I ask for. >< Coz I really can’t live without him anymore. ><

I am listening to better in time, it’s gonna hurt when it heals too, I can only pray hard and hope everything will be better in time.

 

Please continue to care for me, you are keeping me alive. ><

Over.

Finally, exam ended. My last paper was Management accounting which is 3 days ago on 7th of December. God really did bless me for this subject. Thanks God. :) Woke up around 6am just to study and memorize all those accounting formulas. I discovered a way to memorize those accounting formulas.

Gross Profit Margin

GPM = GP / Net Sales

Net Profit Margin

NPM = NP / Net Sales

Current Ratio

CR = CA / CL

Return On Capital Employed

ROCE = NP / (A-CL)

and etc. xD

7 months ago on today, I get to know someone who make me so in love with even until now. Lately a lot of stuffs going on as my 2nd sis is getting married on 3rd Of January 2010. Mama already bought me a RM 210 dinner dress for me for my 2nd sis’s wedding.

At this very moment, I feel my heart is aching and there is nothing I can do about it. Knowing he will be going out with her makes me even more heartache. It’s my fault for not born in sg. I blame myself for everything. I’m really sorry and I just wanted to say you have no idea how much I wanted to be really beside you. Bless you both. Hope you enjoyed your date, as long as you’re happy, I will try so hard to stand the pain I’m having now even though it is very painful for me. Been very sad for the past few days ever since my exam ends. Just came back from outside after going out with Siew Wai. She got herself a Myvi SE White color. She got it since 19th November. It was really so comfy and that is why I love Myvi so much.

I know you think of me as just a friend, and that crossing that line is the furthest thing from an option you’d ever consider. But I have to say it… I can’t talk to you without wanting to express my love for everything you are to me.

                             

Events.

12 days to~ 

and

15 days to

I wonder who will remember my birthday this year. Wonder how would my 22nd’s birthday will be. At this moment, I can only wish and hope for the best. Law of attraction says we must be positive and so we will attract positive things to us. :)

Progress.

The past 1 week has been the worst days of my life, so I’m gonna skip it. Exam is getting nearer and nearer. I study everyday from day to late night. However, I decide to update my blog during my half hour of rest time. Lots of things happened in the past 1 week. I don’t want to talk about it because it was the worst week of my life in this year.

Human Resources Progress

75%

F&B Progress

50%

Management Accounting

40%

I’m gonna make all these to be 100% in this week!.

Gambateh Joey!

Everything will be fine, I’m studying very hard everyday. Gonna strive harder! I wanted to take this chance to thanks him for motivating me to study harder. Thanks a lot, I won’t be this motivated without your encouragement. Your supports means a lot to me. Thanks :) Gonna continue study. Aja aja fighting Joey! :)

 

Someday In Fitting Room.

Can’t really remember how, where and when did this photo been taken. But I do remember it was taken by my brother. I like this shirt though. The price? RM 39.90 so ends up didn’t buy and own it. However, it was Converse. :x I want this shirt. T.T

Worst Friday Ever.

Too much had happen, too tough to go through, I can’t face it all by myself. Hereby, I would like to thanks a few person who go through it with me. Firstly, my jie who pei me cry. Secondly, my dear daughter dotti who pei me on phone till 3am+. Eyes got swollen, cried so much last night. It would be definitely the worst Friday ever.

People say when all bad things happen in a shot, good things will come. I truly hope so. I’m so sorry Mammi, I don’t mean to hide the incident from you, I know I shouldn’t. So Sorry. T.T

Weak.

Took some pills from mama last night for my stomache. It didn’t cure my stomache. I run toilet for 3 times in the middle of the night again. T.T I made him angry because haven’t really go and see doctor for the stomache. So I ask bro to bring me to doc at 8am. I was told by the doctor that I had food poisoning and only allow to eat bread and drink 100 plus. Feeling so weak and suffer. T.T Didn’t attend classes as well.  I want Christmas T.T

Mr. Stomache.

Mr. Stomache pay me a visit in the midnight. I run toilet for up to 5 times in a night, can you imagine that? Been eating plain porridge whole day today. T.T Watching mama they all eat pizza and I can only eat my plain porridge. >< No idea what did I ate until run toilet so many times. Skipped class due to this. After Mr. Fever went off then Mr. Stomache came by. Hopefully Mr. Flu and Mr. Sore Throat wont come and visit me. ><

 

Little Penang Kafe Suria KLCC.

Been studying everyday since the start of November. Promise someone to get good results mar, I will study more and work hard! Gambateh Joey! ^^

Found some pictures in my comp which I have dinner in Suria KLCC some time ago. I remember the taste was quite nice BUT quite expensive. But no choice lar, it’s normal for the price to be so ex in Suria KLCC, Tourist are all over in this building shopping and walking.

If not mistaken, this restaurant is situated around 4th Floor or 5th Floor in Suria KLCC. Honestly, the only thing that I can remember very clearly is that their price is really expensive because its only local Penang food. There are 2 version of this photo session. Before eaten and after eaten.

The Menu

Before.

Hokkien Mee.

 

Char Koay Teow

 

Nasi Lemak

 

After.

The End.

My wish.

I wish I know how to fill in the quota that I’m lack of. I wish I’m good enough for anyone. I wish to sit in a hot air balloon and travel in the sky with the one I love. :)

Donuts.

Had Big Apple donuts with my best friend that day. What you all think about donuts? 3 things can be use to describe it.

• Beautiful and Colorful
• Easily full
• and SWEET!! -___-

BUT, I do love to eat it sometimes. 2 piece enough le. Normally people would buy at least 6 piece in a box which is they call it half dozen. The most big box is a dozen which consist of 12 piece of donuts. The most old brand of donuts of what I can remember, its call Dunkin Donuts. Few years back it was the only brand of donuts I know. 2 years ago when I was having my industrial training in KL, I get to know of another brand of donuts by the name of J Co Donuts. Thanks to Catherine, she brought me to Pavilion food court and I saw this J Co Donut shop full of people queuing up to buy donuts. The queue was very long and full of people from children to old people. I got shocked when I see it for the first time. @.@

But honestly, their donuts is really more tasty compare to Dunkin Donuts and also Big Apple Donuts. I only get to know from my best friend that J Co Donut is actually origin from Jakarta Indonesia. J Co stands for Jakarta Corporation. Although both Big Apple Donuts and Dunkin Donuts is origin from USA but I still prefer J Co Donut more. :x

Big Apple Donuts & Coffee From USA.

J. Co Donuts & Coffee

My Favorite Donut Flavor, Tiramisu! XD

 

Dunkin Donuts From USA

In conclusion, J Co’s Donut Taste the best.  *Rated by me :x*

Birthday Girl Tze Yuin :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TZE YUIN! May you have a great ones. Best wishes from me to you. :)

Hope you won’t mind I use your photo to blog, cause it’s your birthday mar :x This year I even call to sg to wish you leh! Hope you like it :)

Been knowing you for almost 10 years now. Thanks for all the tolerations between us and also please forgive me if I made you angry in the past. Still remember that time we go tuition together and I always go to your house. We chit chat, we sms, we surf net in your house, and we eat very spicy tom yum mee together. Those days are still in my mind and will always be in my memories that we had together. We even write letter to each other. Haha. I bet you don’t remember already la. :x

 

The Letter

 

  Your Signature :x

Once again, Happy Birthday Tze Yuin, friends forever, we must keep in touch :)