Christmas.

Christmas has always been a warm season of all the year. Although it’s always end of the year, but I love Christmas. Christmas this year is meant to be more special compare to the past few years because I’m gonna celebrate it in Singapore. It’s been year I wanted to celebrate my Christmas in Singapore because they said Singapore has the most beautiful lightings during Christmas time. Bonus is, I plan to meet some important persons when I go Singapore next month. The first to meet is of course my aunt and my dear cousins because I’ll be staying at their house. Secondly, it would be my jie. I wanted to spend lots of time with her, wandering around and talk non stop. That’s if she is free to meet up with me. =/ But most of all, the one I wanted to meet the most, is him. I know it’s not a sure that he will even wants to meet me, but I really really hope and wanted to meet up with him and spend time with him even just for a while. I can’t wait till Christmas. >< How I wish I can turn the time faster, so Christmas will be here when I wake up tomorrow morning. Sigh, I know it’s not possible at all. I’m just dreaming. ><

A lot has been said and I know it very well. I will try harder. >< A lot of bad things keep on happen to me, I cannot handle this alone, can anyone supports me? Comfort me and console me by pop-up me on msn? T.T I know bad times will go, there will be sunshine after the rain, but I really need someone to tell me that now. ><

Green Tea Latte Frap.

Got complained for keeping on drinking the same drink - *Chocolate Cream Chip*, and so ordered this Green Tea Frap with my brother that day. It actually taste quite good, although at first didn’t get used to it when I first taste it. But after few taste of it, it actually taste quite nice. :)

Had a good talk with my brother. It was a good talk with my brother that night. I even cried in the car while we on our way back home. Thought of something, feel heart pain. All I want is only someone whom I love to cares about me and talk to me, why is it so hard? Or is it too much to ask? >< Tell me? ><

Kalai Curry House.

After Mr. Chow’s class, all of us went to Kalai Curry House together with Ms. Rachel and Puan. Lela. Me as usual took some photos. I love to take photos, just simply anything or any occasions anywhere anytime when I feel like taking.

Patricia’s Meal

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Patricia :)

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Cheerful and Happy Judee :)

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Fiona :)

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Kah Men :)

 

Ms. Rachel and Puan. Lela :)

And Lastly, My Roti Telur Without Onion :x

 

P/s: Happy Birthday to Calvin Loh. May you have a great ones with Tze Yuin lar :) But I bet you both sure had a great time together :) May you both happy together always :) You both looks as match as always, Bless you both :)

Left 4 Dead

Francis, Bill, Zoey, & Louis.

Now I finally understand what Judee mention about *Boomer* earlier. It is a shooting game which is similar to CS. Just that it is much more extreme and much interesting *some say*.

My best friend even told me that some of his friends even vomit after playing this game for a while. For me, although its my first time playing this game, I don’t really feel vomit, only abit dizzy la. But I can still play this game because me and my brother played Doom when we were young. Talking about this game call Doom. I still remember we have to go to the Dos mode only we can play this game. We even use cheat codes to play :x The cheat codes are IDDQD for all God mode *which means wont die* and also IDKFA for all weapons equipped. The 7th Gun is the most powerful ones. :x

In this Left 4 Dead game, there are a few monster I met in the game, Boomer, Snooker, and Hunter. I heard the most scary would be the *Witch*. I was told when the *Witch* is getting nearer, you can hear woman crying, and when you hear that, you have to off your flashlight else the *Witch* will come to you and you’ll be dead for sure. GG-ed. So far, I’ve never met *Witch* yet. Spend 1 hour plus playing this game in Infinity. Thanks Ivan for intro me this game. xD Had a quite happy day playing this game. XD

Here are some of the monster I hate the most.

The First One, Let’s Welcome…..

Mr. Boomer * Yuck*

His tactic is to vomit on one of us and explode. -.-

The Second One, Let’s Welcome….

Mr. Smoker

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

He will spread out a gas which can damage our life bar.

The Third which I hate the most of all,

Mr. Hunter

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

The End.

Gratitude

Finally paid my debts. It’s really so *heavy* and very *pain* on me. T.T

Everyone will surely face problems. It will occurs in everyone’s life everyday. The key to solve problems is to calm ourselves down and find a solution to solve the problems we faced. Try telling it to friends and they might be able to give some opinions and guidelines which can be use on solving your problems. :)

I forgot to bring back my Coke Glass Cup before I left McD just now. T.T So heart pain, the whole set cost me RM 15 plus a sundae chocolate. T.T

A lot of bad things keep happening to me lately, thanks to all my friends who supports me when I’m having a bad time in my life. Hereby, I thank all of you for supporting me as always :)

I agree with Ivan, we must be gratitude. We must not forget to say thanks or thank you to whoever helped us and supported us during the hard times. :)

Thank You.

Arigato Gozaimasu

Kamsah Hamidah

Xie Xie

Terima Kasih

:)

Thanks.

Thanks to a friend of mine, I came by to know something about myself. Nana, I feel so sorry for irritated you all this while. I will never ever know if you never tell me. It must been so hard to stand me.

I am truly sorry. I don’t know what should I say anymore.

It’s gonna take time, but I’ll change. I promise. I’m really so sorry ><

牵绊

再不想成为你的牵绊
寂寞总要试着习惯
就当是一场赌注
谁赢谁输
你又何必在乎
再也不想成为你的牵绊
再也不会对你心软
用我的孤独
交换你的幸福
你知道我很容易满足

Picture is telling stories. :)

This time, I’m gonna let the pictures do the talking. Never did this before, but saw it in my friend’s blog before. So I’m gonna try it.

I mean it. :)

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Wedding Dream.

Finally saw Er Jie’s wedding gown. Thought of myself. I took Er Jie’s wedding gown and put on my body. The gown is so pretty and I’m sure Er Jie will look so pretty when she wears it. :) But ler, it looks so funny on me because I’m not tall enough to even wear my Er Jie’s wedding gown. :x Er Jie even say, “next time you have to tailor make your wedding gown lar” =S

Anyway, everything is still too early to say. I’m not even sure If I ever have the chance to wear that and marry the one I love and then spend my whole life with. I am a very loyal and devoted person. That’s what almost everyone who knows me say de.

I believe every girl did dream about how they want their wedding to be. Wearing white gown and hold by parent’s hand walking in a church. Papa gave my hand to him, I smile happily. Until the moment, I said I do and then we kissed. Or perhaps having a wedding in a garden? Just a small one will do, I am a very simple person, I don’t need fancy fancy big wedding. Just simple as nice, as long as the one I marry is the one I love, that’s the only thing matters to me. :) Receive blessings by my family and also friends. Marry with the one they love is every girl’s dream la, it’s normal, so don’t blame me for dreaming :x

What a beautiful dream, but it still so so so far away. I don’t even have anyone who wants me now. Hah. However, accidentally watch Bride Wars that day, I love Kate Hudson’s wedding gown. Simple as nice. I even did some research on it, it was design by a creative woman call Vera Wang. The wedding gown that Kate Hudson wears in Bridal War was her Fall Collection 2005.

 

Closer Look. :P

Isn’t it simple and nice? ^^

P/s: I wrote this not because I wanted to get marry so much, I’m just dreaming ^^

Hope.

Time flies, soon it’s going to be November le. I got to start to do my revision le. I can’t afford to fail anymore. God please bless me the best for my future undertaking.

Human Resources: 50% bah :x

F&B: Erm, I think got 40% la :x

Management Accounting: 20% T.T

Cham le, gonna work harder for accounts le, other 2 subject I still can handle, but accounting is really making me so worry. T.T

Let’s work hard before I enjoy my trip in sg when December comes. =P Just nice timing, because my finals will be on Starting of December, so I might be able to go earlier once my exam finish! Let’s just hope for the best to come. It will be fine, everything will be fine :)

Been wanting to buy phone so much lately. Mama is going to lend me money to buy it, but my decision of buying Nokia’s phone or SE’s phone is shaking. What is wrong with me? I thought all this while I have been a Nokia fans and I’m shaking? =/

Suddenly I thought of something someone told me, he said, as long as you love yourself, other people will love you. So far those bad points he think I should throw away, I think I almost finish throwing le, maybe still got balance 15% la, but I will work more hard to throw the remaining 15% away! :)

2 months later from today, it will be my birthday. Hope I will have a happy happy birthday this year. I don’t wan to celebrate alone anymore T.T Thinking of how it feels when I celebrated my birthday alone during my 20th birthday 2 years ago. I will never ever want to go through the same situation anymore. T.T

Wants.

Sometimes I feel I don’t really understand myself that well. It’s not that I don’t love myself or have no confidence in myself but its, I just don’t  understand myself. But I do know what I want and need. I am a very easy satisfy person. A lot of my friends said I shouldn't be this easy to feel satisfy. When I ask them why, they say its simply because human’s are greedy? LOL!

Different people want different things. What I want is just very simple. I just wanted to be care by the one I love and I care for him and I’ll be guai and listen to him telling me about his life and feelings. Is that too much to ask? :(

No one can really predict what will happen in the future. Do anyone have any idea how much I hope that December is here when I wake up the next day morning? I believe there will be so many happenings during December. First thing is because December is my birthday month. Secondly, it’s the long waited trip together with my best friend See Meng. We’ve been promised to go sg for trip together since 5 years ago. Finally this year we are going to make it happen! Hopefully God bless us that everything will be smooth according to the plan! =D I promise I’ll pray more and even more harder for everything to go smoothly! Everything will be smooth because It will just be! =D

I just wanted to say…

 And

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

The End.

Silly.

Perhaps you don’t remember anymore, you once said, love is being silly. And so now I reply you back “Anyone can be passionate, but it takes real lovers to be silly.”

You’ve always said me silly and call me silly girl. Yes I am silly and this is me. =)

Went to Starbucks with bro just now since we both are bored. Thanks Ivan so much for the special discount :x

I might be a bored person but I’m trying everyday to learn to be a more interesting person. Sorry if I bored you sometimes. =)

I know something changed between us after that incident. I don’t know how to resolve that feeling but there is nothing I can do about it. What can I do to prove to you that my heart is really sincere about everything I told you? I feel deeply sorry for making you feel sick listening to all those words. Sigh. I shall let time be my witness and they will prove it to you.

You.

I’ve been thinking so much lately. I’m just a very simple minded girl who wish to have a simple and happy life, why is it seem so hard? I don’t fancy about branded stuffs, I don’t need a perfect rich handsome boyfriend. I just need a normal person who cares about me and love me.

Never thought that I could be this stubborn when it comes to relationship thingy. Last night I listed down things I know about you. For me, those I mention to you is so much already for I only know for 5 months+.

And after I listed out all the points I find in you which includes both good side and bad side of you. I realize for the 2nd time I can really accept everything on the list. I believe you know how I felt for you very clearly. I never thought to stress you or force you, all I want is just to stay beside you and supports you. Is that too much to ask?

So much bad stuffs happening to me. Can anyone console me and give some supports to me? My stomach cramped again. T.T PAIN!!! >< T.T

Happy Pills.

Do anyone have any idea where to get this? Today has been a miserable day for me due to the effect of what happen last night. I seriously needs this. Anyone kind enough to spare a few pills of this? ><

I’ll be willing to pay at all cost. Can I perhaps offer myself in helping to do housework of whoever own this pills to exchange for a few tabs of this pills? T.T

Perfect.

You don’t have to be perfect to be exactly what I need. :)

I know I suppose to be in somewhere spending time with you but couldn’t make it due to some reason in the last minute. Believe or not I feel ten times sad and disappointed. You have no idea how many tears I cried for not able to come. I cannot describe in words of how much I wanted to spend time with you even just for a while. However, I believe there will still be chance. December is not that far as you think they are. Time flies. =)

I believe you know how I feel for you. Said too many times already. Hope you will understand what I said. Sorry for being to stubborn, I guess I’m just so devoted to you :x

I am deeply sorry for not able to come. =(

 

Complications.

Even though I am in starbucks enjoying my Chocolate Cream, my mind is running non stop. Too many things running inside my tiny little brain. Never feel as stress as this for so long time. Too many problems comes in a shot.

Complications, so much of might and maybe. I’m not sure if I can handle this alone.

Compensations, family issue unsolved, unsure journey, I’m 21 years old already, I should be old enough to handle this, but now the fact has just proved that I am not fully ready for this adult world. How so ever, I am in adult world already and I got to get myself ready and face the world of adults which is full of responsibilities. I need to attend problem solving classes maybe.

I am afraid of things I am not sure of. I want to see the world. I wanted to be trusted and let me try to walk. However, I still need my family and friends to supports me when I fall down. But, my dear mom, will you willing to give me the chance for me to prove to you that I am able to take care of myself. I did prove to you once during my 3 months industrial training in KL 2 years ago. I wash my own clothes, I rest and drink lots of water when I’m sick, I kept my laundry everyday after work, I went to shop for groceries needed myself by taking Monorail and walking.

God please bless me for everything smooth for me. I really wanted to go for my trips. T.T

I am.

Something very bad happened…

I am stunned.

I am shocked.

I am so sad.

I am so sorry.

I am speechless.

I am helpless.

Can someone help me? ><

T.T

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I need someone to tell me this. T.T

Anyone please? ><

I have no idea how to resolve this awful feelings. T.T

E52 Anyone? :P

 

Current obsession :x

Sony Ericsson Or Nokia?

=/

Current Selling Price: RM 1290 *Original Handset with 2GB memory card*

Mamma Mia.

Tuned into this movie when I was eating my indian fried noodle at home after class ended at 3. Thought of watching this earlier during their premiere which is about 1 year ago but didn’t watch it in the end. Can’t really recall the reason.

This is a story about this woman call Donna and her daughter Sophie, her relationship with 3 man in her life, Sam Carmichael, Harry Bright, and Bill and also her 2 best friend - Tanya and Rosie. Sophie is about to get married to the love of her life - Sky and wanted his father to walk her down the isle on her wedding day. She found out her mom’s diary and invited the 3 guy, Sam, Harry and Bill.

Along this movie, its all about singing Abba’s classic songs like

• Mamma Mia
• Chiquitita
• Money Money Money
• Honey Honey
• I Have A Dream
• Super Trouper
• Dancing Queen
• Our Last Summer
• Lay All Your Love On Me
• Gimme! Gimme! Gimme!
• Voulez-Vous
• SOS
• Does Your Mother Know
• Slipping Through My Fingers
• The Winner Takes It All
• I Do, I Do, I Do, I Do, I Do
• When All Is Said And Done
• Take A Chance On Me
• Waterloo
• Thank You For The Music

However, I only love some of the songs from Abba, like Chiquitita, Super Trouper, Dancing Queen, The Winner Takes It All, and Thank You For The Music.

:x

2007

Suddenly found this photo while browsing photos stored in my lappie. If not mistaken this photo of mine was taken 2 years ago. Any changes in me compare to my recent photos?  A few friends of mine said this photo looks sweet, any opinion? ^^

2009

Any difference between this 2 photo of mine? ^^

Beside the hair style of course. :x

 

Loong Xu Tang

This is one of my favorite snacks to eat. Its call loong xu tang in mandarin. My own translation - Dragon’s Moustache Sugar. :x I don’t always see people selling them so often. Only few months once. Every time when I see people selling this, I’ll surely buy 3 box and normally it cost me around RM 15 bucks for 3 box. 6 piece in a box for the regular size.

 

Today I Am Alive.

Was suppose to go somewhere but didn’t make it due to some reason. I feel so damn sad about today. I think I’ve forgotten something very important. I just couldn’t remember what it is.

My brain is not functioning. Wondering what is happening inside my brain. Having war maybe? =/

Totally speechless.

P.S. I Love You.

Cried very badly just now. T.T Never cry as much as this ever because of a movie. It’s call P.S. I Love You. Heard about this movie earlier but never really watch it before. It even available in books form.

This story is mainly about a girl name Holly and a boy name Gerry and how they met in Ireland. The time when I tuned in to this movie, Gerry already dead due to brain tumor. Everyone were so sad and was holding some kind of Memorial Day for him. At first I didn’t wanted to continue watching and tune to another channel. But then due to the name of this movie is so special, I decided to tuned back to this channel and continue watching it.

Holly got collapsed after Gerry’s death. She said Gerry was taken by the God and it’s not fair. Meanwhile her friends and her mother keep supporting her and console her because they know she is so so sad due to Gerry’s death. Before Gerry died, he wrote Holly a series of letters that will guide her, not only through her grief, but in rediscovering herself. The first message arrives on Holly's 30th birthday in the form of a cake, and to her utter shock, a tape recording from Gerry, who proceeds to tell her to get out and "celebrate herself". In the weeks and months that follow, more letters from Gerry are delivered in surprising ways, each sending her on a new adventure and each signing off in the same way; P.S. I Love You. Holly's mother and best friends begin to worry that Gerry's letters are keeping Holly tied to the past, but in fact, each letter is pushing her further into a new future. With Gerry's words as her guide, Holly embarks on a journey of rediscovery in a story about marriage, friendship and how a love so strong can turn the finality of death into a new beginning for life.

I feel the guy is so sweet and touching. He wrote her letters to guide her because he knows Holly will collapse after he die.

I wanted to say, P.S. I Love You.

Sunshine.

You fill me with sunshine.

Thanks to you, I am much happier everyday now.

I’ve never been this happy before.

I’ve become a much more confident person.

I really appreciate you so so much. :)

Knowing you is one of the luckiest thing happen in my life.  :)

Alive.

The world may never know the truth about your life; that’s because they don’t care to. But when you find the ones who want to know every detail of it, cherish them, they are the ones to keep. They are the ones who keep you alive.

Cherish them when you found them. Because they are getting extinct soon. :P

How cute. =P

There is nothing wrong with you. :)

Saw a phrase which I think is quite true while surfing friend’s blog just now. It says,

Love isn’t finding a perfect person. It’s seeing an imperfect person perfectly.

I totally agree. I’m seeing someone perfectly. =p

 Say me blind, I see everything is fine with you. =P Bleh.

Remembered :x

I want to be remembered as the girl who always smiles even when her heart is broken, and also the one that could always brighten your day even if she couldn’t brighten her own.  :)

Do I qualified enough to be remembered this way? =S

Happier Life.

10 Tips For A Happier Life:

1. Don’t worry.
Worry is the least productive of all human activities and thoughts.

2. Don’t let needless fears preoccupy your life.
Most of things we fear never happen!!!

3. Don’t hold grudges.
That is one of the biggest and most unnecessary weights we carry through our lives.

4. Take on one problem at a time.
It’s the only way to handle things anyway; one by one.

5. Don’t take your problems to bed with you.
They are bad and unhealthy companions for good natural sleep and rest.

6. Don’t take on the problems of other people.
They are better equipped to handle their own problems than you are.

7. Don’t live in the past.
It will always be there in your memories to enjoy. But don’t cling to it. Concentrate on what is happening right now in your life and you will be happy in the present and not just the past.

8. Be a good listener.
It is only when one listens that one gets and learns ideas different from ones own.

9. Do not let frustration ruin and rule your life.
Self pity more than anything interferes with positive actions with moving forward in our lives.

10. Count your blessings.
Don’t even forget the smallest blessings. As many small blessings add up to large ones.

Found this article while surfing. Quite a helpful guide, but the thing is, can everyone actually do so? =) I will start to do so. Hope you all can too. =)

P/s: Happy Birthday to Jack, may you have a great ones.  :)

Zhong Qiu Jie Kuai Le :x

Happy Mid Autumn Festival to all everyone in the world. =) Or should I say, Happy Moon Cake Festival to everyone ^^

However, the moon cake festival this year somehow very peaceful. Everyone doesn't really seems so eager to celebrate like the past few years.

One thing I find out, I only likes to eat Bing Pi Yue Bing. Other than that, I don’t really like it. :x My mom said to me just now, “you don’t really interested in eating moon cake huh? I said, not so gian, I only eat bing pi yue bing.”

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Guess what animal is this? I don’t really know it, but it looks like a mice to me. :x

Awaiting. =)

I am really looking forward for our trip to come. Never thought that I would have this chance going on a trip with you. Every single time when I thought of it, I will smile and happy. I even dreamt of something about us this morning. I do believe dreams will come true. As what Ivan taught me, as long as you believe in it, it will come true, its the law of attraction. =)

We go walk here and there…take photos…eat stuffs…gossip about the people beside our table or the girl who dress like so lala :x…talk this and that…having fun together….laughing together…how nice just to even think of it….We will make this work…and it will work out fine! It will be, because I know it will be! ^^

That is why I must get a new phone with nice camera because I love to take photos with my phone. Bleh. =P

 

Awaiting the great days to come. God please bless fully for everything to go smoothly for him and also for our trips. =) I will willing to do anything for both as long as it goes smooth. =)

God, please bless everything is smooth for his work. Everything good happen to him jiu hao le, give him all my good luck ^^

Trips! ^^

Once again, 3 of us had phone conference together. Planning something fun and exciting. Places to go for a short trip, any suggestion?

Penang

Pulau Langkawi

Genting

Cameron Highlands

That’s all in my mind for now. To be continue….

Let’s have some fun together. Awaiting an exciting trip. ^^ It will definitely be memories that will last for a life time, for my life time =) Bless and pray hard for this trip to be smooth and success. It will be smooth and success. The law of attraction! ^^